Ok folks, gotta go to work.
A wise man (my memory is fragile and failing) said,
Happiness is if your work is something that you love, and that you would love to do even in your leisure time.
And all for free!
Alas, I hasn't been so lucky. It's not chess
Magic the Gathering, Wizard Dragon Chess
Szymek, all of us who may feel the same are patzers MADE.
Not because we are born so, or have no talent.
The basic education in chess, math, etc. is broken, rot, rot, rotten, rotten to the core.
Blame the FIRST teacher. They are primarily responsible if we don't get wings -- in any domain