I looked at your most recent lost. You blundered a Knight.
At our levels, blundering is common. Look into videos/course on CCA (aka CCT) Checks, Captures, Attacks (Threats)
Some advanced players don't like CCA, and it isn't worth going into why here, that could be for another thread. But you need help in that area.
1) Don't Blunder
2) Find Tactics.
3) Play slow time controls. 10, 15 and even 30 minute games. Avoid Blitz and Bullet.
You'll start winning.
Hi everyone.
I'm writing here because Im facing a big problem.
I started playing chess a few months ago, here and on lichess. I challenged myself to improve my chess level and since then I started playing frequently and watching Youtube videos to improve my skills. And it doesn't work. I'm still a bloody noob and I still lose against people who just discovered the game. It just pisses me off and I'm in a very bad mood since a few days ago. I blame myself for my miserable level and I have bad thoughts about myself because of that. When I lose a game (almost everytime), I get mad and I put myself in serious anger. I'm also harsh with my family.
My problem is that, after months of working on it, I'm still a noob and I don't improve. I still do the same mistakes over and over again and I cant take it anymore. I'm at my wist's end.
I blame myself for getting myself into such a catastrophic state over a simple game, but I am unable to accept defeat and I tell myself that if I am so bad at chess, its because I am a miserable person in general and my ego takes a huge hit.
I just need help. I have dark thoughts because of that.
I know that you find it ridiculous but believe me I dont exagerate anything. I really feel a deep painful sensation in my chest in those moments and I just want to broke anyrhing that is in front of me, myself first.
I just need help. Please.