You are not doing anything for your chess kid. Watching videos doesn't help, most of the people that talk on the videos are weak players or don't know how to correctly explain. Usually both.
Look at some Books on the Internet, and read them, carefully analyze your games and learn where you fail. Knowing the value of the pieces and pawn structure won't help you in any way if you dont know how to connect the knowledge to pratical play.
There is a nice Chess Club here in U.S. called the St. Louis Chess Club, they upload some actually good videos.
If you show me you are promising chess start I may even sponsor you.
Im going crazy with this stuff of improve, i cant improve, i just cant, i dont know how, im tired to search and never find.
I have 1300-1400 i cant be above of 1400, I have 1900 in tactics trainer, i know how to play the opening, I have the knowledge of chess, like pawns structure, or the value of the pieces and where is well placed and more, but always I fail in a game.
I can spend a lot of hours studying chess, or playing.
Im tired of losing more than 3 games in a row, , i dont know what is wrong in my game, when i have a good position i end missing something, and i lose the game.
I just want to improve all i reached was autodidact, Im young and i want to be good at chess to excel.
Without support in chess I only can use the internet, where i live there isn't are clubs, and no one play chess, I cant be in a club because are very far of where i live.
In a whole year i would like have a rating very high, that is too hard but with perseverance i know i can, but i dont know how keep improving.
I always analyze my games with a engine and there is inaccuracy.
I cant afford lessons like i say i dont have any support, I always see videos but in any way i can't improve is really frustrating see how the days keep passing and i keep stuck in the same level.