it will always be small i

ego crystallization  refers to that central psychological fulcrum which undergirds our sense of identity: /  i, & nothing but i/  as a child i did act as a child zealously capitalizing i wheresoever it intruded into the stream/   but as an adult i put away the ways of a child & write small i always & everywhere as a most natural & appropriate thing/  how small & insignificant a thing am i/ a machine that pecks away like a power drill to gratify his fetishes with an incendiary religious fervor / here a cheeeseburger now a cigarette a cup of coffee & a chicken breast hero/ next comes a blunt ala cheech & chong & so on / i am a machine & machines don't have an i/ i do the same things again & again to satisfy fetishes of the flesh/ carnal preprogramming controlling my cerebrum with reptilian brain influences/ wherefore can i say i have an i any more than a machine does?/ everything i am is by the grace of some external power/ which came first the chicken or the egg?/  black booties swaying naked in the air at the offices of @Literary Lucifer on twitter/ lucifer is more akin to my lifestyle, some might say, than any divine flame/ from flesh to flesh & dust to dust/ small i amigos/ it will always be small i

Funny, even though I realize that I am not a speck of fly feces in this vast universe, I exist. I am. I create. I learn. I live and whatever universal insignificance this collection of atoms and molecules and cells that constitute the physical me denotes, I am happy to be alive. I am proud of the "I" I have become.