The one thing some may not notice. There are cheaters. They use AI to "win" because that means more to them. When you reach your true ELO you will be at roughly 50% win loss ratio. Your true rating is your average. When you improve, you go over 50%. Logically most will dip below 50% when experiencing frustration and cheaters who AI beat you.
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You should ask your parents to supervise your playing time so you play fewer but more meaningful games.
Also, do not be so hard on yourself. You are not trash, you are simply on a bad streak and tilted. Get off the web and study or watch chess, but do not play in order to prove to yourself that you are good - because you are.
There’ll be a plenty of time to learn more chess in your upcoming years😅