losing games to my own bad play

yes you are right ---i move too fast trying to save time so i can at a latter date play more slowly but it gets in me in problems most times --- i can win on time when i play 3 min games about every third time --but not 5 min games they are too long and my opponents are smarter than me so i lose game after game even players with 100- 125 seem to way ahead of me in traps' forks etc and other things i know nothing about

studying the lesson part of this site is fun but it does not help me in any way game form -- the lessons do not deal with how to win or at east how to not lose they just show scenarios that i never see in my games at least -- puzzles are the same i love to do them every day but the ones they show never turn up in my games -- maybe they are meant for higher level player's games -- but i never see those in mine -- well couple more games and a lesson before lunch and my med afternoon nap -- see what it has to impart on me --

even though iam now losing every game iam not so depressed as i was before now that i can analyze with site helps each one of my games --- seems to not help with my play but i do like to see if i can make a move that is a not a blunder mistake or some other negative thing the bot tells me i did wrong at least i am getting my first four moves down or though i think iam from move 5/6 on iam totally lost -- but iam getting used to being at 100 all the time -- its just i seem to play people at 130/140/150 alot and not 100 102 or something like that -- but it is what it is-------i will keep plowing up till move 6 anyways still at 5 min games

late night play i grabbed a couple of games without losing any -- wow!!! they must have been really new players --- but i will take it i guess -- after as many losses as i have today and yesterday anything of a win is good ---- see you tomorrow meds kicking in now

monday morning play couple wins couple losses - so nothing to do but keep playing till i get back to 100 or move up -- learning about "the killer trap " for lesson today - sounds interesting hope i can grasp the fundamental of its power did a bunch of puzzles this morning up to 818 so i have to keep doing those every time i play-- maybe it help someday back to games playing almost all indians today aren't there any other foreign players out there ????? besides indians

India has a population of 1.4 billion and I believe chess is a really popular game out that way. Shoutout to all the Indian brothers and sisters out there ✌

shout out is fine but do you think i could play a more rounded mix of peoples form all over the world -- or are indian players just at the 100 to 150 range cause they are sandbagging -- just a question??? they if they are all that good cause of number of players would they be at the bottom of the chess world 100 to 150 ??? thats my point

too many losses building up today seven in row enough i will look at a another lesson today second one today but playing is just getting me depressed i can't be that bad -- to lose 7 in row to players who are supposed to be the same level --- even a 100 player beat me bad -- so back to drawing board and watch a lesson -- i really wish they would help -- i will keep slugging till meds kick in for afternoon nap --- maybe its an old dog new trick thing -

still losing every game but at least in 50 % of the game i get to about 27 moves then its over then 50 % of the time its usually about 12-15 before i know its over so that is a very very small improvement but at least light at the end of the tunnel ---maybe ????? (another lesson please) hahaha

TUESDAY NITE - still losing every game -- but a little worse play by me i am not getting to move 30 at all-- every game its between 10 and 15 then i know its over tried a tourney still playing -- will play a couple more games before the nite time meds kick in

LATE TUESDAY NIGHT - played a couple of games woke up can't sleep had no success lost my queen early almost every game ran material losse -12 most games same as early evening -- hummmmmm maybe it time to stop period at least for a while its getting toooooo depressing playing all the time losing lessons /no lesson /puzzles /no puzzles / advice -- no advice --- hummmmm? he saids

wed afternoon 12 losses and 3 wins -- but the good thing to come out of this i got to 30 moves and above in some cases in over 30 moves in about 50 % of those losses - 30 moves is my new goal just get to 30 moves and i will consider it a win for me -- off to my afternoon med nap now they are kicking now and i need to stop things aren't so bad when you look at it differently

wed nite won a couple of games lost only one game -- but played poorly i thought but i did get out of the basement 100 playing 5 min games

maybe i should stop and savior the moment --hahaha

thursday morning couple of wins-- no losses -- still really just got lucky playing against players who do not take advantage of my major blunders and mistakes - so i kind of get a- get out jail free card thing on certain games when i should have lost hand down --- oh well one more game till lunch and taking of meds

THURSDAY -afternnon too many losses back to 100 again up and down up and down win 2 games loss 3 -- never seems to change ---- after med nap i will see what i can do but it seems nothing going right today ---- lost at poker also this morning -- whole bank roll of 56 dollars --- really really stupid just like my play in chess --- two lessons to watch and few puzzles than nap time

friday morning -- two losses one win --- still at 100 trying a new opening kings gambit to see if it work better than the last one -- results out just yet -- watxh a lesson then one more game before lunch

just blunder check unc

what?

sat morning/afternoon - tried a new center opening and i am now at 163 so something is working -- will keep going till i lose two in row then stop for med nap

LATE SAT NITE playing pooorly can't sleep meds not working so iam losing all my gains from today -- one more game then thats it for tonight

sunday morning did puzzles for 20 mintues -- lost 100 points --- yeps !!!!!!!!!-- then played couple of games and lost again -- so will take another lesson and see what if any i can stabilize this sinking ship-- might join a tourney just to fool around with -- to combat my depressive feel this morning-- ok see you later