My thoughts on my chess so far.

I've played chess since I was 4 years old. It's funny looking back on my old notations of some tournaments I won as a kid; I noticed I wrote on over 40 pages of games, in the section for opening "doesn't matter", I did the same thing for the page number "doesn't matter". It's far easier and linear in cognitive thinking to put the page number or remember and write down the opening. Although it's good practice to be organized, I've realized my chess is that without branding. always has been. I know I have hole and a long way to go but I have started to beat a few masters 2200's in casual games, and was told I play with an algorithmic style. instead of memorizing, I see patterns I've developed over my whole life, much like a computer does when you play it, with more inaccuracies of course. Interestingly I play way better with less time, the pressure speeds my ability to thing algorithmically. I've also found a hidden beauty in playing a humanized version of a computer Esquse chess style. That the inaccuracies I make may not lead to the fastest mates but accomplish the same thing with a closer methodical but "hopeful" win that leaves my opponent wanting to play again. this in mind I've been fascinated with the alikines, a supposedly bad opening for black, h4 obviously bad, and a few other openings I dont know I've found strikingly good. because I'm not yet bound to theory I can quickly memorize others one or two strong games, adapt, and play their way. more over if I can tell right away I'm winning, I will lead them on a goose chase, I did this often as a kid too. although this isn't "textbook" I believe learning how my opponent thinks, even if hes a 1200, is more valuable than correct moves in certain games. that's enough for now🙄😴