opening phase

some of you may have played the opening for several years.
you may have played it for several years. if you like me you may be sitting duck for playing the same opening but you believe in the system.
but it is hard to keep the passion for chess if you have to play 10 moves before getting to play real chess.
How do you motivate you to getting through the opening phase. I have played the Caro Kann for 5 years now but should study  it deaper but I find opening  is to just a way to survive the opening in order to play real chess. so I stick with one.

conditional moves.

Losing is a good motivator. I suggest get smashed once and it should move you to more personal development.

I'm guessing. 

wouldn't that be considered rude to the other as soon as he makes a move "it says conditional move"?

Try Chess960, you throw the opening books out and start planning on move 1. You may get a clear advantage early if you take your time and work!

I have lost a lot so I should have learned a lot
but that has nothing to do with the opening phase, I understand if I do not play in the opening I will never get a good game.
but if I manage to survive I might get to use tactics which drives me.

thanks I will try but I think I heard that some opening theory has been developed in 960 so do I survive the opening if someone knows it?

i don't think it's rude. you're just making conditional moves for the memorized opening.