play me or coach me sick of this ish I'm stuck

can any 2000s play me and not let me win I'm only like 500 both blitz and classy but I wanna see the difference ... I'm stuck and its making me depressed lol furthest I've been is like 635 ..... even a 2000 that wants to be my coach would be cool  I have an intricate mind for this just don't know wtf to do  anymore and I cant get better because I'm stuck paying these 500 and its like the 700s don't play true chess.... sick of this ish need to play chess players not wannabees ....sadly I play horrid when they don't play chess 

I do play like a 1300 but like can someone give me the key to consistency

I was playing dude in blitz and lost 12 or 15 times literally idek anymore

Hi, I would love to coach you! I am around 2170 rapid, DM me if you are interested