No offense, but you're no Carlsen
I started out awful too, and had difficulty calculating more than 2 ply. I didn't like math (or any subject) and never tried in school (until I went to college 8 years after HS). I did always like patterns and logic however. I chose chess by accident and found out I liked it.
Anyway I'm not lamenting because I'm not a NM, and it takes talent to be a NM, boohoo. If I were to lament it would be because the top 10 are only populated by people who were once teenaged GMs.
For me it's these exceptional cases only that point to talent's existence.
Of course, my story doesn't explain savants -- but it's a complicated issue! And that's really my point -- certain assumptions about talent oversimplify the issue in my opinion.