substinance during an otb game


I just need about 350 dollars I will pay you back
For years i lived a life style where money was never an issue. In fact i spent just to spend. I mean absolutely mindless purchases. Now? I have enough money to do what i need to do. Not what i want to do. For me, happiness came after the money left.
I am talking to ghostess she offered but I dont think she was being serious. money means little to me but chess tournaments and I never win at them.

I just need about 350 dollars I will pay you back
For years i lived a life style where money was never an issue. In fact i spent just to spend. I mean absolutely mindless purchases. Now? I have enough money to do what i need to do. Not what i want to do. For me, happiness came after the money left.
I am talking to ghostess she offered but I dont think she was being serious. money means little to me but chess tournaments and I never win at them.
If you add up all i have spent on chess, and chess related stuff. Subtracted that from what i have won at chess tournaments. You would have what is called a "horrible investment" But all the experiences it has brought me cant be measured in money.

@IMBacon I have played in about 60 otb tournaments at the weekends or through 12 days etc not including club championships or team events in leagues and although ive come 2nd a few times and third I have never won 1st prize.

I must have spent easily 15000 dollars and got back 180 dollars in prize money
not counting about 6000 dollars on books,1000 on chess equipment,2000 on dedicated chess computers

@IMBacon I have played in about 60 otb tournaments at the weekends or through 12 days etc not including club championships or team events in leagues and although ive come 2nd a few times and third I have never won 1st prize.
The most i ever won at a tournament. I went downstairs to the sports book. Collected my money. Told them to hold 30% so i wouldn't have to deal with tax time. Walked over to the roulette table, and promptly gave it all back.

I am actually 60000 dollars up in my gambling but I am useless at buying cars I buy them for 10000 dollars then sell them 2 months later for 6000 dollars because I need the cash

I have made a 25000 dollar loss on car sales plus paid off 25000 of debt plus paid for chess lessons 10000 dollars.