NG5 Nxe5 0:1
You seem having a twisted view on game results.
After 12...Nxe5 (likely best) white has a rather serious initiative with many moves: 13.Nxe4, 13.Re1 and 13.Bf4 all look quite promising for white.
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Dvoretsky
The best answers have already been given, including the suggestion to ask your coach.
But Ozzie's answer is probably the most pithy. I love it!
It is a bit sad that my local book seller told me once that Dvoretsky's books do not sell well. They are not for the faint heart.
When I get a bad loss, I will open the analytical manual and spend a whole day on one or two chapters. Still I have not finished the first half yet.
as soon as you reach 2100 and keep studying chess you are just wasting your time. there is nothing to learn really except memorizing opening lines up to move 30 like in the sicilian. what strikes me is that some people enjoy it.
Continue deluding yourself. It seems as if you're completely ignoring the importance of the middlegame and endgame. Chess is much more than memorization. Otherwise, anyone who has a good memory can memorize opening lines and become a grandmaster.
Ironically that's how many toddlers under 16 are rated 2200+. Memorization of opening lines, with a bit of chess sprinkled here and there to trade off and queen a pawn.