Book review of the saddest book I’ve ever read

Book name: Red sky in the morning my Elizabeth  Laird. 

About a girl called Anna who has a disabled baby brother called Ben. The ending broke me. Spoilers below:

Ben has respiratory failure and dies. Here’s an extract from the book right after his death. I typed 3 pages of the book and my phone refreshed so imma not type it so long. 

I think it was Ben store banging shut that roused me  without really waking me up. I heard mum’s feet pattering downstairs to the telephone, And her frantically typing in a number. I heard her voice high and panicking. Dr. Randall, it’s Mrs. Peacock here. I’m so sorry to bother you in the middle of of the night, but it’s Ben. he’s not breathing right and I can’t rouse him. Oh please. I’m so worried. No, my husband’s out of town at the moment, it’s just me. Oh thank you so much.. 15 minutes you said?

I think it was the cough medicine that mum gave me that knocked me out completely that night. I didn’t hear the doctor frantically working over Ben’s cot, Mum’s terrified phone calls to where dad was staying in the hotel up north, or her first expressions of grief. I knew nothing until 6 o’clock in the morning when she burst into my room in a flood of stormy tears. Katie walked into my room trembling ‘what is it?’She asked. ‘why is mum crying?’ Ben’s been very ill said mum. A wild insane Joy rushed me.  Had I misunderstood? Was there still hope? I waited my heart in my mouth, to hear what I already knew. ‘He’s gone.’ He passed away in the night.’

I walked into Ben’s room. The nurse had moved his cot in the wrong place. He he couldn’t see the pigeons that were already pecking at the windowsill.’ I’ll put it right for you’. I whispered. I pushed the cot back into place. ‘Resperatory failure.’ mum had said to granny on the phone. I was afraid that he would look anguished, choking for breath, but he didn’t. Quiet, peaceful and happy. I knelt beside his cot because I was afraid of disturbing him, And told him things. I told him how I loved him. The moment I saw him and that he was the best kind of brother anyone could have. I told him he’d be all right. My foot kicked against something soft. It was his fluffy rabbit. I put it beside him. ‘There you are.’ I said. There’s rabbit.’  Then I kissed him to say goodbye, and the frozen lump in my chest started to melt and I ran out of his room and flung myself down on my bed. That’s where dad found me crying later,  and we cried together until there were no tears left. 

Sad

that is just pure sadness in its purest form, also great book review :-D