I need a break

I’m going to be taking a break from the social side of chess. It’s hard, but I think I need to, for my own mental health. For the past half year it’s been a back and forth of “I’m fine, I’m not, I am, I’m not” and I am so sick of it.

A video I watched made me look back on the past, when I was just happy. I wasn’t worried about being enough, about my mistakes, about the problems in this world: I was just happy. I want that back, and I feel like taking a break from the internet as a whole is the only way for me to find it.

This isn’t permanent, I will come back eventually. But I need a break. I can’t keep going on trapped in this cycle of being depressed, then shoving the feelings down until they resurface, then letting them be for a week before shoving them down again. 

I won’t be completely gone, though. I’ll still play games and occasionally answer DMs. But I won’t be on any of the forums or clubs.

I gtg to bed after I post this, but I’ll be on otf for a little bit when I wake up, before I leave, to answer questions and stuff.

I wish you all the best.

#3 bro this is serious

I'm happy you're making a decision for your wellbeing. See you soon! Good luck <3!

Thank you

Imma go to bed now, have a good night everyone

See you soon!

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Nooooo! Beeeen! I hope your break is restful. Enjoy. : (

Cya around hopefully ❤️

I'll cya around Ben.

bye, good luck, and see you in three months :)

Enjoy your time away. We’ll be back here for whenever you come back.

Thank you, everyone. I’ll miss you all

3 months?!?! Hell no, not that long!

1 month hopefully? (Oh and who are you leaving Hawy to?)

Ben, do what you think will be better for you, but I will misss you

Good luck with life, Ben.

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How unfortunate that the internet is such a place...