Yes ve be drinking the vodka to relax, yes?
On the bus
What? No vodka? Great wise russian drunk once say: no vodka no polka. No one understand of course. He was drunk.
what shall we talk about, though?
I love meeting new people, but one thing that's hard to do here is to get a sense of a guys hometown and what he does.
for example perhaps a guy describes what brought him to New york city and what he loves and doesn't love about it.
I would tell him about country life here in Pennsylvania. hiking in the woods; fishing in the rivers (i like river fishing better than stream and lake fishing), having a big ole garden (and praying for rain), getting ready for deer season,etc.
the problem with the forum, is that perhaps are abstract and hide their identity. they pretend to be women. they mock others.
sometimes I think too many people are actually very young; and I remember when I was much younger- how mean and intolerant teenagers can be.
I can tell you are sincere and I like your direct style of telling people what you think. but it is Hard to "meet" and "know" people properly on chess.com.
I totally live on the edge of sleep deprivation. but no vodka /hard liquor for me. I figure I'm really best staying away from that stuff.
lots of people in my family have been irresponsible and were not there for their family due to drunkenness. One of my distant relatives actually died over it- he fell asleep (passed out) on train tracks.
I found it hard at one stage, I still struggle a little from time to time. I think though I've toughened up a bit .
Basically though although I wouldn't say I'm a particularly morale person I have a certainty that I mean well and that sustains me.
Anyway when you relax and be yourself you let these things wash over you.
I enjoyed your post, thank you.
I'm always a little sceptical of people liking me . Things change quickly around here! It's like a bar brawl sometimes and we all get caught up in it.
:-) honestly though, alcohol is a good servant but a terrible master. It would be safer not to take it at all.

But then I guess expressing anger and frustration is a part of being yourself too.
All I'd say is people relax and be yourself, I accept you.