relax and be yourself

Here's something.

Have you ever heard that some people reach the point they just don't care what people think about them?

Is that healthy?

It irks me when I'm rejected. But I think perhaps I need to learn to not care.

Some people say care about how those close to you feel but no one else.

I know I'm okay. Well I know that perhaps I should be in solitary confinement because I could start an argument in an empty lift but I know I don't want anyone to suffer.

Does anyone feel comfortable when rejected?

I don't want to be in a group that ostracises. I've never blocked anyone because they've said anything on a thread of mine.

Always insisted everyone is welcome.

Anyway it is what it is. Sometimes I wish I was dead though. Rejection hurts.

All my trials Lord will soon be over.

Happy morning! 😀

There is No doubt, in my mind.. that those who reject, {the concept of}, 'God' - Are Both demonstrating, their 'Free Will'.. and their Own determination, {invaribly assisted by the invisible 'Negative' realm}.. Of objectively choosing, a perceived 'short- term' advantage..{ie. Not being accountable} - As if, there are No 'Bigger picture' consequences. - And, I'm Not exclusively referring, to the prospect of 'Hell' - Which, at-its-core; Is {eternal}, 'Separation-from-God' ..{which is being 'cast adrift' at its' Worst!}.

Postscript - The above, does Not necessarily refer to those who, for whatever reason, are 'Mentally' impaired - And, exhibit certain features of disassociation, from 'Self'! .. Even though, to Most people.. the idea of 'Non- Selfhood'.. is a more sophisticated way, of 'pretending' as-it-were, of divorcing ones chosen actions.. {esp. the 'bad' ones} - From the thought, of Not being held accountable. ..{yeah.. and my own.. and everyone elses 'postings'.. are done without, our own involvement}. ..ha!

Thank you SA. You can't cuddle a principle. I love you man. I read what everyone writes here so long as it's in their own words.

I'm pathetic aren't I? A man with no friends that spends his time writing on a chess site where he's universally ignored.

Take your shots guys. Most people don't bother I'm so boring and unlikeable.

What's the good news? I know I don't mean any harm. Doesn't stop you being lonely though.

I guess I had a purpose to posting here before. It was a big search you know, a big game. But it's over for me, I've reached the end of my journey, of my search, there's no point me posting here any more.

It's lovely to be talking about something other than nature of reality. Kaynight was right, he'd come here after weeks away and I was talking about the same thing.

I don't regret my search. Not at all. I'm happy with my understanding and I had some great fun but I don't want to go back to exploring

So what's here for me now?

I'm not sure really. I guess I'm curious to see what I'll talk about. I have a lot of free time and it's nice to have somewhere I can come and talk.

I love when people engage me and even the slightest interactions here I treasure.

I don't feel the need to post here anymore really but I like it!

I suppose if anyone was reading they might regret I have ended my search. I'm sorry if I disappointed anyone with my conclusion.

I remember someone saying a long time ago that they were interested to find out where the search for what are we would end.

It ended with the realisation that all there is is nature.

Anyway I'm okay. I accept that my lack of friends is just the way it is. One of those things. People love you or they don't.

You can ensure you spend the time with them but you can't make them love you.

You are who you are

I think at least one of the reasons I post here is because of my view about the universe and free will.

I think a bit like SA said that it's not Tom posting here really it's the universe and I'm interested to hear what the universe is going to say.

I enjoy myself thinking I suppose. I don't know if that's a healthy or an unhealthy thing.

I suppose I might get tired of posting here without a quest, a search.

I'll see I suppose.

Anyway what else have I got to do?!

So thrilled to not be talking about nature. Hallelujah. I hope it holds.

Like all the poison has drained from my system now and I'm pure.

Maybe I can have an actual conversation now!

I just need someone to have it with!

I suppose I'm like a man talking in an empty room. Just chatting away. I guess the reason I post here is I think someone might read!

I can't imagine talking in an empty room really.

I read about a serial killer that talked to the people he had killed.

I've killed a few people with boredom but that's all thankfully.

I'm so pathetic. Anyway I know I don't mean any harm. I just repeat don't I? I even bore myself. Perhaps that's when I'll leave this thread. When I just don't enjoy listening to myself any more.

'Karma' ALWAYS 'Gives back'! .. Either, 'constructively' or the Other way! -- And, Yes.. Constantly, proclaiming, that 'there Is, No 'God'..{much less 'self'}.. Does involve a {negative}, 'karmaic' consequence/ 'Divine'.. if passive, insult! - Ie. Your Own, 'Non- selfhood'.. is apparently, {by your own admission}.. feeling 'miserable' as a result!  o;