something

I know this will sound controversial but here i go.

its going to be a long one so prepare for horrible grammar and grab yourself some water

anyway, lets say, what if im afraid of making friends

why? well im afraid of loosing them, this might sound extremely ridiculous but applies

for example, through out my long chess.com journey, i witnessed so mcuh people go

just a few months into the social side i felt, maybe overwhelmed

this applies to everyone, now not only does the old community slowly die like this, so much nice traits die

do you feel disconected?

sure im now connected to biger forums, ffriends with famous people(on here) and in a tiny bit more prestigious discords and groups but you just loose it

something is missing

this sounds really cringe rn and i have to admit i sound like a cringy idiot but like

its actualy  sad

sadly nostlagic

anyway i guess i should say as a final note, be nice and active please, lets try to keep the chess.com spirit

as usual dont mesage me please chat me, i read mesages less often than chats but if you have a document do mesage me if you need anything

alright ill try to increase my activity by 1.5, a small step at a time, by no means am i resuming my old forum, club or social activity but hey, maybe you can make me idk

no one probably knows what im referencing except for a few people

 i think im ready from stop being on the outside and return back onto the inside though

peace out 

so aparently huntress is my only comment and its probably because hunty does it out of pity or is just getting revenge 

it means i wrote something that gave you a seizure again im guessing 

that sounds like me

rant 100 by duntcare