Well, if you need someone to talk to sometime. Message me when I'm online (I'm logging out pretty soon) or just pm and I'll read it when I come back online again.Ā
I like the concept of people freely opening up, but I kind of doubt too many people with feel completely comfortable posting in a public forum thread.Ā
If anyone just needs to talk or simply needs a friend; same goes - I'm here for everyone 
Hello my name is mean to others and I find very mean of you to report meĀ
Ā I have searched how to feel better for so long, but feeling better has a mind of its own. It comes and goes. Chess is a escape from myself. Interacting with others is a escape. I do not feel sorry for myself but I feel for theĀ people who have to deal with me all the time. Nobody would bother, if I did everything they asked of me. Its not that I can't do it, but its that I don't. "Am I just lazy?" I constantly ask. "Or am I scared of the pressure of failure once I promise myself to the task?"
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Life does not wait for an answer. It leaves you behind while you ponder. Before you even know it, you are theĀ very failureĀ you were scared of. Not a logic in the world seems to be able to change your perspective. You know you are wrong, but you just can't help but feel this way.Ā
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If you are mean to others you will be reported