The Final Task. The suffering is almost over.

So, I’ve been quiet for a while, here’s why:

Ive been so stressed wondering what my parents are gonna think, I realized I haven't planned anything so I have a very simple solution… PLAN EVERYTHING. I have less than a month, so I have decided to lock down my search history, find ALL products I need, start planning a speech, and do not let ANYTHING slip my mind. I’ve also been having nightmares, usually I have no problem, but these have been different… unusually creepy and VERY gory. Despite all of this crying fear and pain, I will NOT let this go down. When all this is over I’ll finally be me, happy, open, and I’ll binge the D-day campaign in Memoir 44 as a celebration.

Sounds fine. Good luck to you.

I told myself “No more delays you’ve waited long enough. You delay again you lose all of this.”

I hope everything goes well

Whether I bleed my eyes out crying, whether my hands are scratched bloody in anger, whether I’m too broken to react or just locked in my own mind, it will work, I’ll make it work.

have you heard of a much simpler task?

therapy?
No like, seriously.

Can’t get therapy, you’re welcome.

I’m sorry you have to go through all of this. Good luck

A few nights ago I had both the best and worst night of my life, I had f*cking 4 nightmares in a row that were the most gory I’ve ever had, being stabbed to death by some bloody Mickey Mouse, being burnt alive in a bacon grill, torn apart by little dolls, losing my brother in the forest and finding him burnt. It was too much, then something happened. I was in my outfit, at my grandpa and grandma’s house, gaming with my cousins. I was so happy, then like 20 mins later I got woken up thinking “Damn I went through 7 hours of terror for 20 mins of happiness?” I mentally isolated myself that day thinking about it. The last dream might be real, the first 4 just guilt.

Sorry about these terrible dreams. I hope everyone is accepting of you and what you have to say soon.

im proud of you.. you can do it!..