6th month on chess.com

It will be 6 months on Dec 9th since I registered on chess.com. During this time I went through a few ups and downs, I was very happy about some successful games, and I also got frustrated and upset about lost games. I often felt that if I lose points, thats the end of the world. I'm sure it is a common reaction to swear and be angry over an unexpected and shrewdly winning move from the opponent, especially if it is a well known trap. Well known to more experienced players, of course.
I should have been always content with my progress in learning, given the little time I could spare for chess, but instead I cursed myself for being such an idiot, not being able to see the obvious.
I have now started my first tournament, thanks to driv4r, who invited me to the Total Random Team. At the very first games I realised, that I have no clue how to start the middlegame after the book moves. I was panicking over my games and almost got frustrated and angry again when I realised what was happening. I decided that I'm not going to care any more about my points and going to enjoy the games, learn as much as I can. And there you go, I'm relaxed now, and I want to keep it up. This is the whole point of my first post, I want to remember this at all times.