Matters that occured

Hey everyone, I decided that over the last few days,I should show you something very big that happened around two days ago and "ended" around yesterday, I am only human and I should keep my promises even if I was in the wrong, this will show that I am not excluded from punishment and also will mean that I may be losing some friends in the process but I think that the true ones would always stick around for the rough ride

well, now that I thinking about it

I should reveal them here instead and get it over with

yeah, this isn't a good look for me, I am aware of that, but I am not here to only show my good side, to be a better person, one must show their evils and rights 

-I already apologized to both Nerdy and Blue in this regard, you might be wondering what caused this to happen, let see, this started when an election came up for ownership of The Pawns Journey came up

first off, I was purely stupid and was too focused in the fact that Blue wasn't Blue that I lie to people and spread false truths about Blue while I was stuck in that world in my head, sorry Air and Hoga for that

second off, I hate myself for all of this, so I am manning up and taking all blame for this, hate me all you want, I get it

Third off Blue didn't accept the apology which I don't blame him for doing, I would have done the same in his shoes

basically I am telling the truth of what happened, which is dam*ing in every way and I hope that some of you guys can accept this and move on, and no I did this of my free will 

If you want to see Blue post about this, head to here https://www.chess.com/blog/T3mP3sTa_F1er4/when-trust-turns-into-trickery-a-lesson-in-club-leadership

I Don't expect anyone to forgive me for this, so it is what it is

and also I am feeling a strange feeling like when Hamilton wrote the Raymounds Pamphlet, I only wish for the record to be set straight here, judge me as you wish but I am still going to do my job which is helping clubs grow and thrive while I can slowly fade away into no one like before but I always will have regrets and this one is my own to carry 

 From Akito Yama, The Ruler Of shadows