This blog is my first blog in English and is not even related with chess. It's funny how I like rainy weather but hate being sad. I feel happy when I see dark clouds and hear raindrops on my window. But not today. Not yesterday. Sorry, sometimes I can be very dramatical. Some people call me "drama queen". There are no "some people". Being simple sucks. Being like others sucks too.
Have You ever thought that it is better not be at all? All the philosophical stuff makes me puke even more than I am doing it now. I am tired. Tired of being myself. I would give anything to start a new life in another body. I hate mine. I wonder, does it hate me too? If yes, then we are on the same side. Even when I google "sadness" I see pretty people.
"But the wind was stronger.."