I wrote this song for @frost8574 a while ago...
This is the last song,
I'm gonna write about you.
I hate that I'm wide awake,
sitting here in the dark.
We were never meant to be,
You like be free,
I like to be alone.
Don't ever pick up the phone,
My heart as cold as stone.
I'm fading away,
Feel like a stray.
You were the main reason of my happiness,
Now you're the main reason for my darkness.
I can't hate you though.
I've tried.
I don't really hate you.
I hate that I miss you,
I hate that I can't move on.
I hate I don't really hate you at all.
You don't really care anymore,
but I still do.
I want to hate you,
but I can't hate you at all.
I can't hate you.
Try to forget us,
but nothing works at all.
I wanna forget all the memories,
I want to forget it all,
I want no memory of you,
I want no memory of you loving me,
or me loving you.
I want to forget the night we spent together,
I want to forget every touch.
Forget all that was lost.
I want to hate you,
but I can't hate you at all.
I don't really hate you.
I hate that I miss you,
I hate that I can't move on.
I hate I don't really hate you at all.
You don't really care anymore,
but I still do.
I want to hate you,
but I can't hate you at all.
I can't hate you.
I have to ghost you now,
pretend you're dead now.
Hard to do when,
everything reminds me of you.
If I'm saying the truth,
I still need you to be here.
but you don't have a clue.
Took everything in me,
not to say "please don't say goodbye".
I don't wanna say goobye.
Should we even try again?
Or should I keep this pain.
Is that insane?
I've tried hating you,
to try and keep myself from loving you.
I don't really hate you.
I can't hate you.
I don't really hate you.
I hate that I miss you,
I hate that I can't move on.
I hate I don't really hate you at all.
You don't really care anymore,
but I still do.
I want to hate you,
but I can't hate you at all.
I can't hate you.
I thought I'd be alright,
but I can't keep this fight.
Now you're gone
Won't even pick up the phone,
I feel so alone.
want you to know,
I'm by your side.
I can't even hate you.
The thing is,
I don't even reconize you anymore.
Pictures don't change,
just the people inside of them do.
That I can say is true.
I still love you though,
but not in the same way.
I miss the days when,
I could see your face,
and not want to kill myself.
Feel like I'm in hell.
I hate that I miss you.
I can't hate you though.
I don't really hate you.
I hate that I miss you,
I hate that I can't move on.
I hate I don't really hate you at all.
You don't really care anymore,
but I still do.
I want to hate you,
but I can't hate you at all.
I can't hate you.
I wish I could hate you,
but I can't.
God I miss you,
I don't want too,
feel the way I do.
I know you weren't a mistake though.
You never were but tell me why
I don't really hate you,
I don't really hate you,
I can't hate you at all.
