Dealing with a threat of loss
I have a friend who's mom is in the hospital in a coma, and i let them know that i understand what they are going thro. When i was 16, i lost my mother due to a blood clot and a node on her lung. I let them know that i understand what its like to be goin thru those emotions. Its hard it is. Just the roller coaster of her being on a ventilator was enough to make me want to quit and just give up. But my friends mom is in a coma. Their mom is more likely to survive. And i believe in their mom. I believe in my friend, because i know that my friend is one bada$$ chic who isnt afraid to stand her ground. Some of you can understand what it feels like to be battered around, like your nothing more than a object to be used and not cared if broken. I know how that feels. From ages 16 to 19 i was in and out of foster homes, constantly on the run from cops, being disrespectful in general because i let my hate and anger and confusion and frustration out. And it wasnt at anyone else. It was directed at me. At that moment i hated myself. I kept thinking why her? Why not me? Until the day that I turned 20, i answered that question for myself. The reason why was because she did it for me. I was looking back at her journals, and i saw that she was in a fire trying to get me out the door, and got stuck inside. I know that sometimes this can seem depressing, but it actually made it easier to understand what happened.
Now, I wont be back on for another month, so if you see my friend, give her a message. Tell her that you know what shes going thru and just be willing to try to support her for me.I know that its not your job, but i do in fact need your help. I need to take care of myself and i just got admitted to a psych. ward, and i want to focus on getting out ASAP. BTW, my friends username is @EmtheGoober . Please if you see her, or just shoot her a random message I will deeply appreciate you for helping her out thru this hard time.