There is less than a month

As you can see by the thumbnail my skill is in some serious issue. And in my other blog where I talk about how I think I will not make to 1000 elo by the end of the year that goes into the reason on why this is happening so if you are interested in that then look at that blog. But I feel ashamed when I look at this, I went from a person with 940 elo with infusionism and confidence aiming for not just 1000 elo but possibly more! And now look at me a person who on average has 8 blunders per game it is not likely to make it to 1000 elo at all and some of the biggest losing streaks of the Modern era and comparable to me when I was at 100 elo. I have abandoned all hope of reaching 1000 elo now and to be honest when I said my new was 950, I am lowering ot again to 910. This is the most humbling and humiliating time of my chess