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Hello and welcome back to another short summary of todays OTB event where i simply just wanted to have fun. there are many outside things affecting my head right now so i just decided to go to this tournament simply as a way to destress about my life. the games weren't at all impressive but to me it didn't matter much. i was mad that i was going to get a bye but luckily another late opponent was there and we played till i won that game with a tactic 
he resigned simply due to being down the exchange and there wasn't any major compensation given the fact that my rook infiltrates and gobbles all the kings pawns while the bishop is pretty much a dead piece. very equal opening wise and in the middlegame as well but i am guessing time pressure just got to him, leading with a simple ending. the next game was a bit more fun but before that lets share this fun video i posted against a friend in time odds 😱
this was during the aftermath of the first round and we were relaxing playing bullet games together and thats when i asked a person to record which he did and that made me happy. the coincidence however is that the same man who recorded my video is also my next round opponent which really surprised me with both laughing a bit. the game went a bit alright with a slight advantage and i went on to convert being up a piece in a simple middle-game attack.
we both knew where the major mistake took place as it was simply a piece blunder, nothing special and the game from there on was just simple conversion and re-maneuvering pieces to better squares for a tactical finish.
the next game i just really was not at my usual mind and just Drew against a new friend who i played a couple of tournaments ago when i got first place. he was a 1300 but pretty much i wasn't too mad as i just wanted a relaxed event, the result didn't matter to me today.
towards the next game, i was facing a 1200 rated opponent where again you will start seeing some similar patterns emerging in my mind. i had slightly winning positions but just couldn't find any good continuation. we shuffled a bit back and forth till ultimately after burning my time for over 5 minutes, decided to trade the rooks, repeat, and agree to a draw. the father asked for the notation which i allowed and we talked for a few seconds before he left with his dad somewhere.
the morning was pretty gloomy and all i ate at this point was just a small fry from a McDonalds nearby alongside some soda many hours ago back when the first round was already started. this is the raining storm that occurred throughout the hours and there is news and reports of the new hurricane appearing near me which doesn't make things quite better in my predicament. back to the games i played the last round, lost and well do i feel mad? maybe a little, frustrated? yes but at the end of the day i just came to escape reality and have fun so i was happy, even congratulating Marcos after winning the event with 1st place 
What did i learn? (the same old life lessons)
1. sometimes you just have to enjoy yourself in the experience and feel better
2. its better to be feeling happy and motivated from these games than just being down
3. at the end of the day chess while very important is also a fun game so have fun as well
4. doing the things you love while things seem bad can make you feel less stressed
that photo above was after my first round game and well as of late June 5, 2022 i am heartbroken to say that i don't know what to do at this point. all i have planned is hopefully make it to the July event and then just try to see a psychologist for some therapy involving some future deaths or scarring from past trauma with my family and normal life. i will stay online most of the time but just for games and maybe some comments but thats all from me.
i did lose rating in that event but it doesn't matter much to me as the event itself served more as a way to feel better as i am experiencing certain problems which just make me feel either burnt-out, broken, tired, hungry, or just feeling like i will crack and breakdown. i like to thank all of you for your support and the 1k followers that have helped me, stay safe and cheers :/
