My first tournament – part 2: My worst enemy

Today was the first day of the easter tournament. Three of the eight rounds were played today, two of which were rapid (30 min), and one with classical time controls. After these three games, I can only reaffirm what I have already concluded: I am my own worst opponent. Some time ago I came across the term "blunder barrier", which is something I definitely have not yet crossed. I blundered pawns and pieces, and lost two games against much weaker opponent. The game I did win was pure luck, as my opponent blundered a rook and a knight (during severe time pressure), and gave me a winning endgame. I had already blundered two pawns in the game. With any fairness in the world, my opponent should have won.

Jeremy Silman recommends a simple and straightforward approach, that is difficult to argue against. In short, he encourages us to first consider the available moves given the position, and then visualize the chosen move as though made, firmly.

I have read mr. Silman's words several times, and agree with the logic. But at the board, I seem unable to do it, even with sufficient time. I move too quickly, only to realize that I made a booboo. More often than not, the realization comes as soon as I put down the piece. Shamefully, I hit the clock and record my stupid move.

Tomorrow, I am going to take on the most difficult opponent in the entire tournament, myself! I am going to take in mr. Silman's advice, and visualize the moves I intend to make before I make them and consider their possible consequences. It's going to be hard, but I will do it! I have to, mister!