bad vs good playing

Here i can take a lesson out, an example of the two modes my brain can play chess. For some reason i notice the difference is huge, and for some reason it just happens. I had this before then it to weeks to recover from it in ratings lucky me now i only improved over those games, and found myself back again quickly.

First the bad game i played 

In the bad game i don't look ahead, what the knights might do, don't look at the board to check what my opponent strikes, and i keep moving in a downwards spiral.

Second the good game i played