We need to talk

Alright, so my "at home" situation is not that good, and I don't want to get into details. But, a long with everything else happening, another guy still alive and dead at the same time because my sources are all mixed up on weather he did it or not, and now I just feel like everything is going wrong. The outside world is going crazy, and I just don't have people who are able to support me. Then the emotional tole of I guess now 2 people wanting to end themselves? Then I have all these painful memories that i've been trying to throw away coming at me like a F1 at full speed, and it's all just weighing me down. Then you just add up everything else from my previous post, and I am really under a whole lot, and I feel like my "slight" depression is getting worse by the day. I just feel like nobody respects me anymore, I mean, my father thinks i'm an insane lunatic, my mom and I are not doing to well, I can't completely trust my own IRL friends, and now i'm alone. I will post later if things change.