The story that ends before it begins

There was once a girl whom I dearly cared about. We used to talk for days and weeks but it wasn't always consistent . She was like an angel who listened to my worthless words and we had conversations that made me happy for a time. It hurts when she doesn't reply but I understand and do not dare to interfere with her personal stuff. I speculated that she already has whom she loves but I kept on texting and building a bond with her. It may seem light and not so serious to her at all but to me it was all a fantasy. I asked and wondered is this the girl I love? Is this the one I want to be with? Love doesn't always come from a sight all time. The way she cared, the way she talked to me and everything I had seen from her felt perfect to me. I wasn't thinking about confessing either because I am a man with no courage or rather I was being cautious and keeping a boundary between us. From the day I committed that I loved her, everything changed from there. I had more sweet words for her and she seemed to notice it as well. Welp [The way of her saying well], love isn't something that can be done individually. Just like it needs 2 hands to make a clap. My heart was ready for her but she never seemed like it. I kept and held the urge to say that that I loved her. It all doesn't matter anyway because... from the day I heard, she finally mentioned her boyfriend. I knew this will be my final retreat and I do not dare to step forward. Being respectful and knowing the right thing to do was a win for me. I decided I shall never speak to her ever again. Even if I did, no more hard felt feelings will be there. It was all a tremendous storm in my heart. It may eventually fade away.

For her, I will be achieving a CM title in 2025 [hopefully]. I'm unrated right now but soon, I will be reaching 2000 very quickly. Inspired by CM Lin Phone Myat [Aspiring figure]