Decoding

I need to decode my thoughts sometimes. Because I have difficulty saying what I really mean. And so I need to explain. Like my chess games. I don't know where would I go next, but I like to go there anyway. Because I probably want to take something. Or because I was thinking, maybe my opponent is generous today yes? Hahaha. Or maybe not. What seems to me reasonable turns out to be a blunder and hm.. I guess my plan did not work