ok so .... i ended it.....it was just causing us both soooo much stress! i did it at a church (which is kinda funny. :P) and i was in a really good mood so that helped....and then i just explained everything....and just told him how i felt and how i thought that is was better....for both of us. :)
after i felt soooo relieved! it was great! no more stress! and no more guilt! :P And i thought that i had gotten over him.
he told me that he needed about a week to "recover". i was ok with that.
but the couple of days after were hell! and i couldn't quite figure out why....but i knew for sure that i missed everything about him. :P EVERYTHING.
and i didn't know what to do......