life update from Spooky Spinchter (Sergey)

I want to apologize that I did not write for so long. Today if you will notice, I use for first time my real name. For so long I am mad at others because they are not their true selves, while I myself hide under clever funny username Spooky Spincter. Today I show my true self: Sergey, intermediate chess learner, dreamer, and lover maybe from Voronezh.  

I am inspired to write this because in recently I am having so much failures in try to move on from ex girl and find my new girl. For example, I found great new girl, and she is so nice and she plays chess with me and helps me. She says I am handsome even. And of course I don't love her already, but I am happy and excited about her. Like I did not win the chess party, but maybe I can win, you know? But then I finally asked her if she will be my girlfriend, and it seems she has a roommate and best friend who she has some things with. It is all like a romcom which she described to me and I think to myself "wow I never have this thing." and I was very sad because I found out that I did not make any progress. I thought maybe I will win, and then I found out that I am not even part of this chess party, you know? But Sergey is so supportive and is a kind gentle friend in this moment, even though on the inside he is hopeless.

I will not tell a lie and say that I am no longer hopeless. I think that to find the right person before another finds that person is so hard. All I wish to say is that if you have also my feelings, you are not alone. I hope you will find comfort and my words and write to me.

Yours truly,

Sergey