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📀 || 𝐌𝐲 𝐌𝐮𝐬𝐢𝐜 𝐏𝐥𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐭. ↻      ◁     ||     ▷       ↺ This is a forum in which I will be posting music that I feel connected with/find myself in to a certain agree. You may also post music here but I rather you not because I don't want things to get confusing + you may comment. If you would like to have your own playlist in this club please feel free to ask me. Thank you. This is the piece I love. Me too. This the song that I used to stuff myself in my closet with cause I was really depressed when I was like 11-13 years old... <3 rel. This is the song I dance to when I am having my period. :>  Dancing is a form of exercising, which helps reduce period pains/cramps! Like, it really helps :> and I dance for an hour- maybe...or something..and I don't rlly feel period pain at all for the rest of the period!! (bcs it rlly hurts and moving can help ease it. kinda like massaging your body... + it doesn't have to be moving alot like jumping) + this [ insert music here ] .

𝐌𝐚𝐲 𝟐𝟒, 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟓. i'm so broken i can't fix u. sry. sry. sry. sry. sry. sry. sry. sry. sry. sry. sry. sry. sry. sry. sry. sry. —@NATIOYUJIN .

𝐌𝐚𝐲 𝟐𝟕, 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟓. I. So ig I'll just start with an apology—hi hello sry im acting weird i havent been myself lately or um like ive switching back at forth or uhhhhhhhh efvwcdhtgefs bad things are happening to me ok anyways shh. um also i've been offline alot and i did like.......less work... work like..... i didnt reply o alot of dms cause i was offline and busy...also clubs and stuff.......... uhhh..mm... sry i wish i could be me. things are so confusing rn ._________________________. haha i've been feeling like leaving? or smth cause ugh. I DONT WANT "VENT" OR SOMETHING BUT I WANNA LET IT OUT. not rlly like telling u but just telling me. me. ψ(-w - )> sry i feel like. ugh i dont wanna tell .  -_____- my stomach hurts a little still from earlier and from drinking tea (i think i have a sensitive stomach) GUYS I HATE "VENTING" BUT I LOVE EXPLAINING I HAVE SO MANY THINGS IN MY HEAD AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA I CANT  CANT TALK WOW SO COOL XOXOXOXO DONT MISUNDERSTAND THIS. u probably did already. '-' u did. -_- II. wanted to share some things but couldn't bcs was offline and more things too many things i cant even hold things anymore cause i get burned which i love but now i cant do that cause um. yk these words arent good they're so disgusting i wa was HELLP gone. thankyou im so happy o ya let me remember this plsssssssssss 😭🙏🏻 wait a sec. Proverbs 24:16 "For a just man falleth seven times, and riseth up again: but the wicked shall fall into mischief" KJV ok. also ily. but idk if should like that 🤔 ill wait...

𝐌𝐚𝐲 𝟏𝟓, 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟓. I. Found this. II. Finally found this one day for 𝐌𝐚𝐲 𝟗, 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟓.. Psalms Chapter 106 Praise ye the LORD. O give thanks unto the LORD; for he is good: for his mercy endureth for ever. 2 Who can utter the mighty acts of the LORD? who can shew forth all his praise? 3 Blessed are they that keep judgment, and he that doeth righteousness at all times. 4 Remember me, O LORD, with the favour that thou bearest unto thy people: O visit me with thy salvation; 5 That I may see the good of thy chosen, that I may rejoice in the gladness of thy nation, that I may glory with thine inheritance. 6 We have sinned with our fathers, we have committed iniquity, we have done wickedly. 7 Our fathers understood not thy wonders in Egypt; they remembered not the multitude of thy mercies; but provoked him at the sea, even at the Red sea. 8 Nevertheless he saved them for his name's sake, that he might make his mighty power to be known. 9 He rebuked the Red sea also, and it was dried up: so he led them through the depths, as through the wilderness. 10 And he saved them from the hand of him that hated them, and redeemed them from the hand of the enemy. 11 And the waters covered their enemies: there was not one of them left. 12 Then believed they his words; they sang his praise. 13 They soon forgat his works; they waited not for his counsel: 14 But lusted exceedingly in the wilderness, and tempted God in the desert. 15 And he gave them their request; but sent leanness into their soul. 16 They envied Moses also in the camp, and Aaron the saint of the LORD. 17 The earth opened and swallowed up Dathan, and covered the company of Abiram. 18 And a fire was kindled in their company; the flame burned up the wicked. 19 They made a calf in Horeb, and worshipped the molten image. 20 Thus they changed their glory into the similitude of an ox that eateth grass. 21 They forgat God their saviour, which had done great things in Egypt; 22 Wondrous works in the land of Ham, and terrible things by the Red sea. 23 Therefore he said that he would destroy them, had not Moses his chosen stood before him in the breach, to turn away his wrath, lest he should destroy them. 24 Yea, they despised the pleasant land, they believed not his word: 25 But murmured in their tents, and hearkened not unto the voice of the LORD. 26 Therefore he lifted up his hand against them, to overthrow them in the wilderness: 27 To overthrow their seed also among the nations, and to scatter them in the lands. 28 They joined themselves also unto Baalpeor, and ate the sacrifices of the dead. 29 Thus they provoked him to anger with their inventions: and the plague brake in upon them. 30 Then stood up Phinehas, and executed judgment: and so the plague was stayed. 31 And that was counted unto him for righteousness unto all generations for evermore. 32 They angered him also at the waters of strife, so that it went ill with Moses for their sakes: 33 Because they provoked his spirit, so that he spake unadvisedly with his lips. 34 They did not destroy the nations, concerning whom the LORD commanded them: 35 But were mingled among the heathen, and learned their works. 36 And they served their idols: which were a snare unto them. 37 Yea, they sacrificed their sons and their daughters unto devils, 38 And shed innocent blood, even the blood of their sons and of their daughters, whom they sacrificed unto the idols of Canaan: and the land was polluted with blood. 39 Thus were they defiled with their own works, and went a whoring with their own inventions. 40 Therefore was the wrath of the LORD kindled against his people, insomuch that he abhorred his own inheritance. 41 And he gave them into the hand of the heathen; and they that hated them ruled over them. 42 Their enemies also oppressed them, and they were brought into subjection under their hand. 43 Many times did he deliver them; but they provoked him with their counsel, and were brought low for their iniquity. 44 Nevertheless he regarded their affliction, when he heard their cry: 45 And he remembered for them his covenant, and repented according to the multitude of his mercies. 46 He made them also to be pitied of all those that carried them captives. 47 Save us, O LORD our God, and gather us from among the heathen, to give thanks unto thy holy name, and to triumph in thy praise. 48 Blessed be the LORD God of Israel from everlasting to everlasting: and let all the people say, Amen. Praise ye the LORD. .

~ʰᵘʳᵗ ᵐᵉ ᵐᵒʳᵉ—ᵇᵃᵇʸ—ⁱ ᶜᵃⁿ ᵗᵃᵏᵉ ᵃ ˡⁱᵗᵗˡᵉ ᵇⁱᵗ ᵐᵒʳᵉ— ⁽ʰᵘʳᵗ ᵐᵉ ᵐᵒʳᵉ⁾~ —@NATIOYUJIN ~hurt me more—baby—i can take a little bit more—(hurt me more)~ ~hurt me more—baby—i can take a little bit more—(hurt me more)~ ~hurt me more—baby—i can take a little bit more—(hurt me more)~ why wouldn't you listen to me? i know you want to though- do what i told you to do... please? ~hurt me more—baby—i can take a little bit more—(hurt me more)~ ~hurt me more—baby—i can take a little bit more—(hurt me more)~ hide me. hide me from pain. don't let it know im this insane sometimes you just have to breathe— and listen to me. ~hurt me more—baby—i can take a little bit more—(hurt me more)~ i know u will be saving me baby i already let u in why should i let u out? sometimes u just have to hope when there is no hope just hold on- don't let it go... im tired. take me back to my home bring me to me death bed- where i belong, where i am alone. just like i said. ~hurt me more—baby—i can take a little bit more—(hurt me more)~~hurt me more—baby—i can take a little bit more—(hurt me more)~~~hurt me more—baby—i can take a little bit more—(hurt me more)~~hurt me more—baby—i can take a little bit more—(hurt me more)~ —@nAtioYuJin .

𝐌𝐚𝐲 𝟗, 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟓. I. 30 min. II. PSALMS Chapter 3 (A Psalm of David, when he fled from Absalom his son.) 1. LORD, how are they increased that trouble me! many are they that rise up against me. 2 Many there be which say of my soul, There is no help for him in God. Selah. 3 But thou, O LORD, art a shield for me; my glory, and the lifter up of mine head. 4 I cried unto the LORD with my voice, and he heard me out of his holy hill. Selah. 5 I laid me down and slept; I awaked; for the LORD sustained me. 6 I will not be afraid of ten thousands of people, that have set themselves against me round about. 7 Arise, O LORD; save me, O my God: for thou hast smitten all mine enemies upon the cheek bone; thou hast broken the teeth of the ungodly. 8 Salvation belongeth unto the LORD: thy blessing is upon thy people. Selah.

𝐌𝐚𝐲 𝟏𝟕, 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟓. || My brother is trying to be cool bruh.🤦🏻‍♂️🤦🏻‍♂️ I. Once there was like this meme post on YouTube about .... and ugh. like. so basically someone in the pic commented smth abt a pic of donuts' holes getting larger- yk what ill just show it. :/ i opened the comments and stuff and i was right abt what it meant but bro didnt know that 😭. he just laughed like he understood it as a "trend" and liked it 😭 bro doesnt know what he's doing 😭 II. Why is life such a bad good bad good bad good bad good bad good When can the Devil die?

𝐌𝐚𝐲 𝟖, 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟓. I. Once on the couch. Twice on the floor. Once in the bathroom. Five on my bed. II. My hope is built on nothing less B176 C238 CB298 E298 K238 R224 S142 T298 Audio Player 00:00 Use circles to express volume. My hope is built on nothing lessThan Jesus Christ, my righteousness;I dare not trust the sweetest frame,But wholly lean on Jesus’ name.   On Christ, the solid Rock, I stand;All other ground is sinking sand,All other ground is sinking sand.   When darkness veils His lovely face,I rest on His unchanging grace;In every high and stormy gale,My anchor holds within the veil.   On Christ, the solid Rock, I stand;All other ground is sinking sand,All other ground is sinking sand.   His oath, His covenant, His blood,Support me in the whelming flood;When all around my soul gives way,He then is all my hope and stay.   On Christ, the solid Rock, I stand;All other ground is sinking sand,All other ground is sinking sand.   When He shall come with trumpet sound,Oh, may I then in Him be found;In Him, my righteousness, alone,Faultless to stand before the throne.   On Christ, the solid Rock, I stand;All other ground is sinking sand,All other ground is sinking sand. .

𝐈 𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐭 𝐭𝐨 𝐫𝐞𝐦𝐞𝐦𝐛𝐞𝐫 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬. I want to remember this. I want to remember this. Four crying sessions today. One on his bed. Three on mine. I pray. This cannot be unsaid. I need to remember. Why.

𝐌𝐚𝐲 𝟔, 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟓. I. Today I stepped on a small plastic insect cage and looked down. It reminded me of myself. ـــــــــــــــــــﮩ٨ـ .

𝐀𝐩𝐫𝐢𝐥 𝟑𝟎, 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟓. | 𝐮𝐦. 𝐦𝐨𝐨. I. umm i own a cow. ;-;;

𝐀𝐩𝐫𝐢𝐥 𝟐𝟗, 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟓. | 𝐩𝐨𝐨𝐫 𝐛𝐫𝐨 𝐗𝐃 I. My older brother was texting his friend about IQ scores and they took a test and stuff. Then.....my brother told me to take it and i was afraid cause i hate timed stuff (makes me panic ☠) but i got a way higher score then both of them ;-;;;;; aggh he was like rlly sad ;-; and later he was talking abt like reasons i prob got a higher one "inaccurately" or smth 😭 .

𝐌𝐚𝐫𝐜𝐡 𝟏𝟑, 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟔. If I don't come online on March 12-14, 2026, I might have died. If you don't want me to go to Hell, pray for me. Thank you. ⚰️

Ok. so today I am going to be talking about a big problem I have been having and still have that I haven't ever told anyone about... . So...I've been thinking about making a forum explaining this and there were alot of ups and downs the past 22-ish hrs... I think? I hope talking about it with someone will help me...and I thought it would alot but idk now...things changed alot in my mind... I'm still going to try. Anyways, so I've been having like a rlly bad intrusive thoughts and stuff like that. "overthinking". I'm not going to tell everything about it. It "started" probably when I was maybe 10-11. and i got it "stop" when i was 11-13-14? but i got into it again and its rlly bad. its like....it ...idk how to explain. Basically, even when I had it when I was 10-11, it takes up so much of my time and I act weird bcs of it... i get like headaches and i just feel physically pained by this. It hurts my career like when I'm doing anything i just have to deal with so many unwanted thoughts and stop and think about it to make me understand it..and then heal myself. EVERY TIME. like ONE SINGLE SENTENCE IN MY SCHOOL BOOK. HELP. I HAVE TO ANALYZE EVERYTHING. i mean i get like confused NOW (my age) BCS I LOVE TO THINK AND OVER-ANALYZE OR WTVR. BUT I GET RLLY BURNT OUT FROM IT. I LOVE IT. BUT IT RLLY RLLY HURTS. LIKE FCK PHYSICALLY OK. AND NOW> NOW LIKE WHENEVER I DO THAT I GET CONFUSED BCS IM CARRYING SO MANY THOUGHTS IN MY HEAD AND IM WONDERING IF IM MISSING SOMETHING. I FEEL LIKE I LOST SOMETHING. something similar to this which is a seed is planning to do something. and then another thing. and another thing. AND YA ITS VERY DETAILED OKAY??? OR SOMETHING?? LIKE ITS JUST SUBCONSCIOUSLY DETAILED?? I UNDERSTAND IT??? BUT I GET RLLY OVERHEATED AN STUFF?? AND THEN I GET SO STRESSED IF I FORGET AND I HAVE TO COPE. BE LOGICAL. but thats so small :> so small... now its big... and- i just.. feel so guilty...... . .  .. ..  i cant even like watch a video...?? cause like i need to think... i need to rest. and die. and...i just...there is so much more.....TvT ill never be able to get things out..????? and this whole thing here is small too.... i wanna kms so much 😭 it wasn't like a big thing when it started from this thing ppl call "overthinking" but now it grew so much that i like can't think anymore. it hurts to. if anything surprises me or like i need to take in a lot of information and hold on to old info to get new info and then like analyze everything—i just cant live. ok. and i just rlly wanna die tbh 😭 i just rlly dont want to feel anything anymore. its not worth it. i wish death was the end. its ok if u dont understand. these are just the small pieces i can pull out of my heart. thank you for reading.

🦠 || 𝐈𝐧𝐟𝐞𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧... It seems this club has been infested... By souls commenting in a forum and souls joining the club... This wasn't the way the club was supposed to be... It was supposed to be just me in this club (including my alt account, @natioyuujin) doing my business for you—for me, and for you. I set this club so that it was a private club—meaning people could only join if an admin accepted their request to join—and available for non-members' eyes to see the contents. I didn't think people who weren't members in this club could comment in forums. But, to my surprise, @shadowtanuki, commented in the first forum I made—maybe—three seconds after I posted it. I had someone else try it and they also commented ;-; They can't talk in notes unless they have the club's membership though. Sigh... I let @Hot-wheel45 and @Sleeping-PIL0W in :/ Wtvr. I didn't want people commenting in the forums...It would make me feel...less alone? Which would drain me and possibly—probably hinder me (me). SO— MAIN THING: I WOULD LIKE TO SET UP A CHATTING FORUM FOR ALL MEMBERS AND NON MEMBERS TO CHAT. 🦠🦠🦠🦠🦠🦠🦠🦠🦠🦠🦠🦠🦠🦠🦠 + This is basically a friend/fan club smh++ not exactly that haha. a deep one... I don't really want people to talk in the other forums I make. But I will still allow you to. AGGH ok u guys can. <3 XD This club is for when I go. This club is my grave. I have decided to let people join and talk here but please do note that this club is me. Thank you. .

++ × 𝐄𝐱𝐩𝐥𝐚𝐧𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧. If you are having trouble reading the texts I put here, please let me know. ( Some fonts don't show up correctly on some devices. ) + If anyone is wondering if I got the idea of having a club like this from Amungus, aka, @TheLordWalkedWithUs, know that I did not. I had the plan for this club long before he had his made. His club: nothin + Why am I writing this? Am I a narcissist? Maybe. I think it's because I like to explain things. when i can. . Thank you. .

👨🏻‍💻 @𝙲𝚑𝚛𝚒𝚜𝚝_𝙸𝚂-𝙻𝙾𝚁𝙳, 𝚖𝚢 𝚑𝚊𝚌𝚔𝚎𝚛, 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚠𝚒𝚕𝚕 𝚝𝚎𝚕𝚕 𝚖𝚎 𝚑𝚘𝚠 𝚝𝚘 𝚑𝚊𝚌𝚔. 🗽⃢⃢🗿 you see the laptop in the background? that's because he was hacking. claims to be ENTP || depressed vibes person (maybe he thinks it's cool 🤔😱) He works for the FBI or something. 🚨🚨🚨 || I call him "hacker" bcs he is one. 🐱‍💻 || he will tell me how to hack >:0 ||| he likes fox pfps alot 🦊🦊🦊🦊 || also he is obsessed with taking pics of himself with a black hoodie in a hotel bathroom 👺 || He is a fellow Christian ✝ || he has like PTSD so pls pray for him 🙏🏻 ψ(ivi )> Nicknames I gave him: ★ hacker ★ hakerr ★ heker ★ hacck ★ haccer ★ hacer ★ haker ★ hack ★ hacc ★ hakk ★ hackker ★ india scammer scammer His club which is nice bcs I made it so aesthetic :>>   : DᵣₑₐₘCₒᵣₑ ₗᵢₘᵢₙₐₗ like w0w he even does this stuff which i told here: Last edited: 4/11/2025 [ will add more later. ] . . . .

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𝐈'𝐦 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐚𝐧𝐬𝐰𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐬𝐮𝐬 𝐪𝐮𝐞𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐬. 🤨 ඞඞඞඞ You probably found this because you clicked a link I sent to you after you asked me a sus question. There are...other...possibilities, of course. If you asked me a question that I might feel uncomfortable answering(++) I might send you a link to this forum, which I made for my purposes. Such questions I call "sus" may include the following: "Do you like [ word(s) ]?" "Have you ever [ word(s) ]?" "Do you have a crush on [ word(s) ]?" "Why do you [ word(s) ]?" "Who do you [ word(s) ] "How [ word(s) ] is/are [ word(s) ] [ word(s) ]?" "How are you?" etc. ඞ I will send a link to this because I may not want to answer you enough. This does not mean the answer to that question is an answer I wouldn't want to give you if I had to. But if a question was asked that I wouldn't want to answer was asked to me I would like to have the answer unknown, not only by not answering it, but by showing that I'm not going to answer it for a reason. The reason(s) may be: 1. I am fearful to a certain degree about the consequences of answering your question(s). 2. I want to protect myself from pain and because of that, I send you this so you will not be sure whether the answer is A/B/etc to any questions that I do not answer and show this afterwards. ඞ Example: Someone else: "Do you have a crush on [ name ]?" Me: https://www.chess.com/clubs/forum/view/ngngngng-2 *sends the link to this forum because I fear consequences I see and/or I want to protect myself from other times I receive a question that makes me fear consequences I see if I answer it* ඞ Great, now you think I have a crush on someone. 😒 AGGH, for the sake of my heart, I do not. I d—don't th—think I do... Do I? I don't know. :> I love that answer... <3                                  ⬛⬛⬛⬛⬛⬛                            ⬛🟥🟥🟥🟥🟥🟥⬛                       ⬛🟥🟥🟥🟥🟥🟥🟥🟥⬛                 ⬛🟥🟥🟥🟥⬛⬛⬛⬛⬛⬛                 ⬛🟥🟥🟥⬛🟦🟦⬜⬜⬜⬜⬛                 ⬛🟥🟥⬛🟪🟦🟦🟦⬜⬜⬜🟦⬛      ⬛⬛⬛🟥🟥⬛🟪🟦🟦🟦🟦🟦🟦🟦⬛⬛🟥🟥⬛🟥🟥⬛🟪🟪🟪🟦🟦🟦🟦🟪⬛⬛🟥🟥⬛🟥🟥🟥⬛🟪🟪🟪🟪🟪🟪⬛⬛🟥🟥⬛🟥🟥🟥🟥⬛⬛⬛⬛⬛⬛⬛⬛🟥🟥⬛🟥🟥🟥🟥🟥🟥🟥🟥🟥🟥⬛⬛🟥🟥⬛🟥🟥🟥🟥🟥🟥🟥🟥🟥🟥⬛⬛🟥🟥⬛🟥🟥🟥🟥🟥🟥🟥🟥🟥🟥⬛⬛🟥🟥⬛🟥🟥🟥🟥🟥🟥🟥🟥🟥🟥⬛⬛🟥🟥⬛🟥🟥🟥🟥🟥🟥🟥🟥🟥🟥⬛⬛🟥🟥⬛🟥🟥🟥🟥🟥🟥🟥🟥🟥🟥⬛     ⬛⬛⬛🟥🟥🟥🟥🟥🟥🟥🟥🟥🟥⬛                ⬛🟥🟥🟥⬛⬛⬛⬛🟥🟥🟥⬛                ⬛🟥🟥🟥⬛           ⬛🟥🟥🟥⬛                ⬛🟥🟥🟥⬛           ⬛🟥🟥🟥⬛                     ⬛⬛⬛                       ⬛⬛⬛ Also, have fun believing that you know that I dislike having strange intimate feelings which you might know what I'm talking about for someone else now. :/