I Feel Old and Stuff...

...but they say dont chew it. itll make ur tung hard.

There are no words of comfort from my side, I'm afraid. I ain't old enough to understand what you're going through, but stay strong and be gentle with yourself. I hope things get better for you. God bless. 

TY sooo much Abe...and happy Diwali !

a/w's weird stuff wuz going thru my mind after my dearlys departed last nite. i wuz self-assessing as the white wine wuz working. it wuz like in vino veritas but no one else wuz in the balloon basket w/ me. know wut i  mean ? tho i am watching demitasse for the weekend. she helps. shes my couzins pom. she slept at my feet last nite.

Hm . . . I wish i could be old and stuck like you! . . .

I'm going to be 83 in exactly one month . . .

I'm my wife's care giver. Married 59 years & she will be 78 in December also . . .

The grass is always greener on some other field until you get there . . .

Have a good life . . .

Try joining a chess group . . .

thx Denver. yes ur right. i guess its relative isnt it ?...a/w we should go roller-skating s/t's ! we could glide to Ari G and chase the dots on the wall...wind in our hair...and i'll hold ur smooshy hand as I take u back to 1970...yee !!

...wanna go ??

I started crying the other day in my car listening to chestnuts roasting. at the part 'for kids from 1 to 92'. my mom is 92.

but then abt 10 minutes later i started laffing like...burst ! i wuz singing 'chess knights posting on an open file...' lol !     

I thought it was chess nuts boasting in an open foyer? 

opti, i used that # cuz alotta men i ask say their 30's were the best yrs of their life. mine happened to be around late 20's. and put in 30-31 too.

sh*t dont surprize me a/m. maybe that has s/t to do w/it. wait....a old man crushing still drops hope  .

So sure, if there's something wrong, by all means, work on it. But if not...

Max, theres no working on f**king time ! we both know that. its ghostly, relentless, and a thieving bandit. the only good part abt it is itll get u thru a rough patch. but the sad part is it has a funny way of turning a hope into a memory.    

now what ? my only defence against it is attitude. wtf ??...how long can that go on ? see where ive gotten to ?

e/o's handing out advice and hafta say im not really looking for mucha it. i just wanted to say how i felt. and i appreciate how ppl back-express or secondarily interpret it as a chess question too. im good either way  .

uknow, maybe s/o here can enlighten or take me s/w i havent thought...as i deal w/ feeling in the way & up to here in mud. i mean its all anonymous, right ?

i just hope when i get like 60-70 s/o will still crush on me. only cuz i will be on s/o. requite like...uknow ?

So needy... 

...and so proud of it.

...well i want it that way.

im sorry if that doesnt agree w/ u, but i wanna rely upon others.