Well, 99.9% of your games have been unrated.
No wonder they feel unrewarding.
You played 579 bullet games, of which only 1 was rated.
No one, including you has any idea of how good a player you are.
What do you have to lose if you lose rated games?
Nothing. A rating isn't much but it tells you a little about the person you are playing. They are no longer totally anonymous.
It's time to become part of the community.
I’ve discovered I much prefer playing online chess with people I know personally. How do you all feel about it?