How can I, such a good positional player, positionally blunder with a move like 15...Bd6?? or 16...Qxd6?
Why am I so bad?

I haven't read all of the comments so maybe other have noticed this as well. Basically for me, how well I play is directly proportional to how well I slept last night / whether I got enough sleep. Anyone noticing the same?

no matter how hard I try, no matter how much I focus, I always make blunders that I see as soon as I make the play and I always lose trades to end up losing the game. I used to be very good at chess back like 6 years ago and now I feel like never playing again. I've watched many grandmasters play to see how they play and what's their plan, but whenever I try anything, ANYTHING it backfires and I lose unless my oponent makes an obvious "lose the game in one move" blunder. Honestly It's sickening to think that one of the things I used to play all the time and one of the only things that did never frustrate me back then could manage to get me so angry over details now. I could go on and on but damn I'm just tired of it. I think the next time someone wants to play chess I'll just tell them that I don't play chess and just forget the good times

I just like to move the pieces and see what happens next If I make it to forty moves or more, I played a great game!

Like right now I feel like taking a chess board (given as a gift) that I've been given in cuba and just smash it everywhere around me
My 2 cents - S-L-O-W D-O-W-N. And totally forget the clock. If you lose on time, so be it. Slowing down and being able to think and assess each move is enjoyable,, and you may start seeing other lines once you are able to relax. I think back to when I was young (a L-O-N-G time ago) and playing with no clock - just how much fun it was.. I has to be fun!

impossible situation because i get frustrated at getting beat over and over, while i also know that i can't get better without playing
hate this game

impossible situation because i get frustrated at getting beat over and over, while i also know that i can't get better without playing
hate this game
Me too, but, C'est la vie
(on the previous page)