there is chess lessons on chess.com for many variations of sicilian
You’re not strong enough to play the Sicilian.
Perhaps, you can try other Beginner options.
I started with london system and giuco piano
as beginner, I like these openings how easy there were to learn
here is two youtube videos where I learnt these openings
London System
Giuoco Piano
If your looking for Beginner Openings for Black against 1.e4.
You can try Philidor, French, or Caro Kan