It's not really a good idea to start by playing openings that are "counterintuitive" like the French defence. It requires a certain amount of skills to play effectively. Also, it might simply be that you don't like to play that type of positions.
Learning chess: 1...e5
lol. I stopped the tracking at that point until I at least learned the basics of the game....
Until recently I have just been playing games (mostly unrated) to build my confidence and understanding of the game. I am trying to learn a couple openings at this point. I watched videos on the French defense and I think I understood it on a mostly superficial level. Or, I thought originally I got it until I played it...then...well, I say superficial because I get thrown way off when my opponent does something unexpected and I feel like I have to improvise from that point on. This immediately makes me feel like I am on the defence the whole game.
In addition, I notice I am allowing myself to be smothered in games sometimes. I develop my pieces such that everything is secure, then worry about keeping them secure until the point my opponent has found a way to breath down my neck. I've had a few instances where I am staring at the screen so long thinking about my (or my opponents) next move that I totally miss that I am about to lose a Knight or Bishop, with no counter move.
I don't know if this makes sense, but I realize its an issue I need to resolve. I "used to" go for the throat, being very aggressive, but as I learn the game more, I find myself over analyzing positions and tactics to the point where I convince myself every move is bad, thus leaving me with no strategy.
I don't know if this makes sense, but I am wondering from, with what I said, if there are any suggestions. My thought was to learn every variation of a paticular opening until I "master
" it. Or, back to the basics....I know my mentor here has suggested playing less and starting to study more.