I am confused


Improving Your Chess - Resources for Beginners and Beyond…
https://www.chess.com/blog/RussBell/improving-your-chess-resources-for-beginners-and-beyond

1. You only have approx. 165 games on chess.com. If you don't have years of prior experience, you are a beginner, and with that in mind you play very well. You will get better. Just play more.
2. There are some great resources on YouTube. Master level chess players playing against lower-level players (the opponents get their elo points refunded if and when they lose). The YouTuber talks through his/her thought process as they play. I found this to be a great learning tool, it's also entertaining. National masters make it look so easy to beat someone at my level.
3. Analize your games, especially the ones you lose. It helps to find out where you messed up, so you can avoid the same mistake in the future. Also, some of those YouTubers have good advice on how to use the chess.com analysis tool (ChessVibes - Nelson Lopez comes to mind)
As another YouTuber (Levy from GothamChess) often says "chess is difficult". It's a long road to higher elo ratings. enjoy the ride.