Thank you everyone
Losing focus

Personally I prefer chess books. "My System" by Nimzovich
I also prefer books. I recommend "The Life and Games of Mikhail Tal." It's not a chess teaching book, but Tal's friendly way of explaining his games will inspire you and make you more interested in chess study than you were before.

Also fun fact Mikail Tal became known as a positional player later on in his life, but still was the ultimate expert in calculating probably in chess history. However it is known your health declines your chess declines mentally and due to this he couldn't calculate anymore as effeciently and well as he once did so he switched up to a more positional style of play, but he could still calculate and crush the field on a good day.
Such is the game with him and Garry Kasparov in 1993 I do believe, in that game it was 1 month before his death when he outcalculated a prime world champion in Garry Kasparov and Kasparov lost on time.
Very inspiring and crazy chess guy!

And another thing, there is no need to aspire to be a 2,300 rates player, or even a 1,000 rated player. I learned to play more than 50 years ago, and peaked during my high school years. Today my rating is maybe 800.
Chess for most of us is only about enjoyment. Find your level of comfort and enjoy the game for its artistic beauty a nd the intellectual stimulation it provides.
I think instead of watching a chess video when you are passive, do it slowly and write moves, and then replay the game yourself. A good option is to avoid wasting time while watching ...
Second thing - if you play with me, I'll probably lose lol, so maybe that's how you feel better
This is amazing advice, turn passive learning into active learning and you will see yourself improve drastically.