WHY AM I SO [removed ]STUPID? CAN SOMEONE EXPLAIN WHAT IS WRONG WITH MY BRAIN?

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Don’t react like that about a game. Learn some good openings and take a short break. You will get your rating back if you deserve it

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Is this a multiple choice question?

Take a little time off from playing online and use that time to study a book. Maybe an endgame one or middle game strategy. When u return AFTER you've finished the book don't play any speed chess because u need time to think about ur moves and try to use what u just learned from that book. Blitz ain't gonna let u have time to do that. Do that a few times per year & get in live otb rated tournaments with classical time controls. Presto.

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CattlesRevenge wrote:

@mikewier you misunderstand what I am trying to do. I made this account to play the cow opening exclusively. Tyler1 did it and went from 300 Elo to 1900 in a year, so it's possible. It encourages tactical vision. I used to play the Italian and French for white and black respectively but again I'd plateau quote quickly and face immense tilt and lose all my Elo.

Knowing an opening is different than playing it properly. Just take the time to learn it more and also maybe you were just playing easy people but now you are playing harder. You should also maybe play other openings and find out if the Italian or the French or any of the other ones are better rather than relying on the cow opening for every game beacuse people are going to know what moves to play againt the cow.

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Your Elo rating will increase when you learn to play better.

you complain about losing to 1100 players. Yet you play an inferior opening because you say it encourages tactical vision. Why not play a decent opening and focus on tactical vision?

Have you tried the suggestions I made earlier? Following those for a month or two will be more helpful than the two years you have been doing what you have been doing.

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also nobody caresssssssssssssssssssssssssss

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Dude my rating was 900 and then it dropped to 550 because I kept losing game after game after game it’s chill just try to do some lessons or puzzles. They might help.
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Lost all the Elo I gained today what a f*cking joke one more day ruined by this stupid game

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Literally watching chess masters on YouTube climbing ladders and the 1800s they play play worse than the 1100s I'm playing this entire site needs to be stripped down nobody here is playing fairly

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CattlesRevenge wrote:

I hate this [removed -- MS] game so much. I've been playing for two years, I KNOW I can play better than this, but I'm getting smoked by 1100's. I've been playing 8+ hours every [removed] day trying to get my stupid ELO back but I'm just losing game after game. How is it so hard to beat pure beginners?

Lol, this is literally how I felt at 2300. Looking at your games though, you need to focus on three things:

1.Planning. Your planning is to put it simply quite bad. Here are some principles to follow:

Castle Early, unless there is a concrete reason not to

Do not overextend by engaging in superficial attacks when you have not completed development

Do not make too many pawn moves unless you have developed your pieces

Do not give up the Bishop paid early in the game unless there is a concrete reason

Be ware of the value of your pieces vs the value of the opponents pieces. Often your are left with worse pieces and you don`t seem to know why

2. You need to have a decent opening knowledge for at least the first 8 moves. I noticed in a recent game you played e3 and d3 as white as first moves, why is that? You Say you want to play the cow opening but it makes no sense to play it and want to win at the same time. You cannot hope to achieve a decent game by doing this if you are not better at the other aspects in the game than your opponents. As for it developing tactical vision that is just nonsense. If you want to develop a tactical vision play Gambits like the King`s Gambit or the Fantasy variation of the Caro, or the Blackmar-Diemer gambit etc.

3. You need to learn about endgames. If any part of your game is worst it is the endgame. You just completely fall apart when there is no need to.

Bottom line is you need to read chess books. Playing by itself does not lead to much, reduce the amount of time you play and focus on studying.

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Psychic_Vigilante wrote:
CattlesRevenge wrote:

I hate this [removed -- MS] game so much. I've been playing for two years, I KNOW I can play better than this, but I'm getting smoked by 1100's. I've been playing 8+ hours every [removed] day trying to get my stupid ELO back but I'm just losing game after game. How is it so hard to beat pure beginners? 
If these guys at 1100 know how to play 80%+ games and know how to do 3-4 move tactics and checkmates, then how will I stand any chance in hell to make it to 1500.

Do I have a learning disability? Am I really stupid? Why can't I just get better? Why can't I reach like 1200 at the very least? I don't get it. I'm wasting my entire day feeling angry and depressed chasing my elo back and ending on a loss and it's ruining my entire life. 
"It's a board game, relax" - every body who says this is gifted and 1500+. They don't understand how frustrating it is to be this bad at chess and not be able to get better.

It's impossible how am I supposed to get better if no matter how hard I try there are literal beginners crushing me? It's the worst feeling in the world! It makes me feel literally brain damaged. 
Yesterday I lost like 15 games in a row and I broke down crying. You may think this is an overreaction but it's not at all. Imagine if they gave you a soccer ball and told you to stand a few feet away from the goal and just shoot and score. And you tried like 100 times and couldn't get the ball in more than a couple of times. How much of a dunce would you feel like?
I'm literally becoming suicidal because I'm rightfully angry at how slow I am. And then I see people with accounts with over 8000 games and they are STILL stuck at 1100. This doesn't make me feel better, it makes me even more depressed.
When I win and go up I feel good from the inside. I don't mind losing just under 50% of my games, but I'm losing so bad all my elo is doing is going down. Just tanking. And tanking. And tanking. It's beyond upsetting. I can't think about anything else. My friend is 1300 just after a few months of just playing. JUST PLAYING. I feel like I'm just extremely slow.

Lol, this is literally how I felt at 2300. Looking at your games though, you need to focus on three things:

1.Planning. Your planning is to put it simply quite bad. Here are some principles to follow:

Castle Early, unless there is a concrete reason not to

Do not overextend by engaging in superficial attacks when you have not completed development

Do not make too many pawn moves unless you have developed your pieces

Do not give up the Bishop paid early in the game unless there is a concrete reason

Be ware of the value of your pieces vs the value of the opponents pieces. Often your are left with worse pieces and you don`t seem to know why

2. You need to have a decent opening knowledge for at least the first 8 moves. I noticed in a recent game you played e3 and d3 as white as first moves, why is that? You Say you want to play the cow opening but it makes no sense to play it and want to win at the same time. You cannot hope to achieve a decent game by doing this if you are not better at the other aspects in the game than your opponents. As for it developing tactical vision that is just nonsense. If you want to develop a tactical vision play Gambits like the King`s Gambit or the Fantasy variation of the Caro, or the Blackmar-Diemer gambit etc.

3. You need to learn about endgames. If any part of your game is worst it is the endgame. You just completely fall apart when there is no need to.

Bottom line is you need to read chess books. Playing by itself does not lead to much, reduce the amount of time you play and focus on studying.

I definitely FEEL like it all falls apart in the endgame, because I don't know what to do. Especially when there are so many pawns on the board. I'll try studying endgames for a bit and see if I can improve in that area.
But as for the cow, Tyler1 (whom you might know) made it to about 2000 using only the cow. I guess it's easier for me to play this one opening since it applies to everything. People keep stressing that openings don't matter until 1800+ so does it really make a difference? Yes the lack of center control and moving the knights twice is slightly worse, but it evens out. I looked at some of Tylers games vs 1700-1900's and he does fine.
I plan on ditching the Italian/French if I get better anyways. I am bored of them. I think I will do Vienna and Indians defence when I get to 1700 or so if that ever happens.
I don't know man, if you look at my first two games today I start out with a good vision, good tactis, do fine, then I get a loss or two and I start literally wanting to murder my opponent through the screen. Then I start blundering everything. Queen, king, bishop, just giving my pieces out for free. I know that I should step away, but this happens after ONE loss. I get tilted so FAST, and it ruins my entire day. I feel like an idiot. And sure you may relate at your rating to this feeling too, but you're in the %. I'm at like 85%. That's really bad. I feel like trash, and I am. At least you can hang it up anytime and rest peacefully knowing you would probably crush 95% of club players even.

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CattlesRevenge wrote:
 

I definitely FEEL like it all falls apart in the endgame, because I don't know what to do. Especially when there are so many pawns on the board. I'll try studying endgames for a bit and see if I can improve in that area.
But as for the cow, Tyler1 (whom you might know) made it to about 2000 using only the cow. I guess it's easier for me to play this one opening since it applies to everything. People keep stressing that openings don't matter until 1800+ so does it really make a difference? Yes the lack of center control and moving the knights twice is slightly worse, but it evens out. I looked at some of Tylers games vs 1700-1900's and he does fine.
I plan on ditching the Italian/French if I get better anyways. I am bored of them. I think I will do Vienna and Indians defence when I get to 1700 or so if that ever happens.
I don't know man, if you look at my first two games today I start out with a good vision, good tactis, do fine, then I get a loss or two and I start literally wanting to murder my opponent through the screen. Then I start blundering everything. Queen, king, bishop, just giving my pieces out for free. I know that I should step away, but this happens after ONE loss. I get tilted so FAST, and it ruins my entire day. I feel like an idiot. And sure you may relate at your rating to this feeling too, but you're in the %. I'm at like 85%. That's really bad. I feel like trash, and I am. At least you can hang it up anytime and rest peacefully knowing you would probably crush 95% of club players even.

Yes, the opening matters at any level for the following reason. Imagine playing the cow which is unplayable at a higher level which you may eventually reach, it will then take you a few more years studying the normal openings that you need to play to beat those higher rated players. You do learn a lot about chess in general by playing different openings, so there is no harm in that, if anything one day it will be useful to you. I don`t know who Taylor is but I would not use one person as an example of how to get to 1900 or any other rating for that matter. There might be many other factors at play, talent, amount of work put in in other aspects of the game etc. It is like saying Magnus can crush you with any opening therefore anyone can crush anyone else with any opening which is not the case. Furthermore just because you don`t lose to tactics in the opening it does not mean you are not getting some long term positional disadvantage which then loses you the game in ways you don`t yet understand, I am sure that is the case as you end up with less space, less space = less options. Also you will need to make up your mind, are you playing to win, as you say losses trigger you badly, or are you willing to play a suboptimal opening because you believe it teaches you tactics. If it is the latter you will need to be willing to take those losses until you supposedly learn tactics. You cannot have it both ways. It is like saying I want to to learn a new opening but I want to have more wins than losses right away. It does not work like this I`m afraid, chess is a painfully difficult game and it requires a lot of work. To give you an example, just to make it from 2300 to 2400 I read no less than 20 books and it took me two years, in total I have read 100+ since I started playing seriously 15 years ago. It took me two years to learn the Dutch Defence which I consider the best response to 1d4 - TWO YEARS! And it is not just the books, memorising positions, analysing games, running computer matches to find openings that fit your style and preference etc etc etc. I too get angry, 10 broken keyboards 11, mice, a tablet, a watch, a pair of glasses and three monitors. Do not let this game take control of your life and understand progress for most people is slow. Please watch this video of mine it will help you a lot to understand what is happening with you and how to stop it. https://youtu.be/xuPEUeQaHZg?si=EfaLPkAzcGSPPKOq

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why is everyone writing whole paragraphs in here

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Looking at some of your past games, you should try a more conventional, principled opening unless you’re confident you know about other openings.
The hippo defense (I think that’s what it’s called) does not control the center, and if you’re white, is kinda a waste of white.

I think 30 min is the minimum time that gives you enough time to think properly. For improving, I heavily recommend daily! Daily has a built in analysis board you can use to play series of moves in front of your CV instead of having to visualize it in your head!
Calculating is an important part of chess, but improving in daily is a lot easier because you don’t need as much calculation skill. (You can also ignore the analysis board if you are confident)
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My honest advice would be: stop playing, at least for now.

And I say that not because you can’t be a better player, but because you are putting far too much of your self worth into a game, and it points to some other emotional issues you need to think about addressing.

Recognizing your self worth independent of anything else is fundamental; success at chess is secondary. When you realize this and keep things in perspective, then you are more likely to improve when you come back to chess later.
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Psychic_Vigilante wrote:
CattlesRevenge wrote:
 

I definitely FEEL like it all falls apart in the endgame, because I don't know what to do. Especially when there are so many pawns on the board. I'll try studying endgames for a bit and see if I can improve in that area.
But as for the cow, Tyler1 (whom you might know) made it to about 2000 using only the cow. I guess it's easier for me to play this one opening since it applies to everything. People keep stressing that openings don't matter until 1800+ so does it really make a difference? Yes the lack of center control and moving the knights twice is slightly worse, but it evens out. I looked at some of Tylers games vs 1700-1900's and he does fine.
I plan on ditching the Italian/French if I get better anyways. I am bored of them. I think I will do Vienna and Indians defence when I get to 1700 or so if that ever happens.
I don't know man, if you look at my first two games today I start out with a good vision, good tactis, do fine, then I get a loss or two and I start literally wanting to murder my opponent through the screen. Then I start blundering everything. Queen, king, bishop, just giving my pieces out for free. I know that I should step away, but this happens after ONE loss. I get tilted so FAST, and it ruins my entire day. I feel like an idiot. And sure you may relate at your rating to this feeling too, but you're in the %. I'm at like 85%. That's really bad. I feel like trash, and I am. At least you can hang it up anytime and rest peacefully knowing you would probably crush 95% of club players even.

Yes, the opening matters at any level for the following reason. Imagine playing the cow which is unplayable at a higher level which you may eventually reach, it will then take you a few more years studying the normal openings that you need to play to beat those higher rated players. You do learn a lot about chess in general by playing different openings, so there is no harm in that, if anything one day it will be useful to you. I don`t know who Taylor is but I would not use one person as an example of how to get to 1900 or any other rating for that matter. There might be many other factors at play, talent, amount of work put in in other aspects of the game etc. It is like saying Magnus can crush you with any opening therefore anyone can crush anyone else with any opening which is not the case. Furthermore just because you don`t lose to tactics in the opening it does not mean you are not getting some long term positional disadvantage which then loses you the game in ways you don`t yet understand, I am sure that is the case as you end up with less space, less space = less options. Also you will need to make up your mind, are you playing to win, as you say losses trigger you badly, or are you willing to play a suboptimal opening because you believe it teaches you tactics. If it is the latter you will need to be willing to take those losses until you supposedly learn tactics. You cannot have it both ways. It is like saying I want to to learn a new opening but I want to have more wins than losses right away. It does not work like this I`m afraid, chess is a painfully difficult game and it requires a lot of work. To give you an example, just to make it from 2300 to 2400 I read no less than 20 books and it took me two years, in total I have read 100+ since I started playing seriously 15 years ago. It took me two years to learn the Dutch Defence which I consider the best response to 1d4 - TWO YEARS! And it is not just the books, memorising positions, analysing games, running computer matches to find openings that fit your style and preference etc etc etc. I too get angry, 10 broken keyboards 11, mice, a tablet, a watch, a pair of glasses and three monitors. Do not let this game take control of your life and understand progress for most people is slow. Please watch this video of mine it will help you a lot to understand what is happening with you and how to stop it. https://youtu.be/xuPEUeQaHZg?si=EfaLPkAzcGSPPKOq

Thank you for your feedback, and here he is in case you are interested: https://www.chess.com/member/big_tonka_tI think this is a unique case as this guy went from 200 elo to 1900 in under a year. It's unbelievable really. I wanted to try doing the cow only like he did and see how far I would get.

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IM LOSING ALL MY DAMN ELO WHAT IS WRONG WITH THIS GAME? IVE SPENT LIKE 15 HOURS TRYING TO GET BACK UP TO THE STUPID 1200 RANGE IN THE PAST TWO DAYS, IM SICK WITH ANGER AND DEPRESSION. Something is wrong with this website. I'm getting trampled by 1100's suddenly and a week ago I was crushing 1170's. Makes SO MUCH SENSE. Especially these sketchy people from third world countries on here that suddenly start winning after I'm up 10+ points. Yeah what a sketchy unregulated site. Something is up and it's not me. This is eating away at all my time now and I feel worse and worse the more I play. I don't want to stop, I just want a fair system. Nothing makes sense here. 1100's don't play like this. There is no way. I watched like 500 videos on youtube of how 1100's play and maybe 20% of my games they play like that. What a joke.

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I'm not a quitter and I hate giving up but screw this I'm out. Never playing online again. Complete and utter joke. Accounts with like 8000 games still stuck at 1000 elo. SURE. And Santa Claus is real. 1100 is not even a beginner fide rating. You're telling me that all the games I lost with no blunder (no hanging), it makes sense for the other person to know their openings well, know several move tactics, know their endgame well, have a 75%+ accuracy rating, several great moves, yadda yadda yadda. That's not what 1100 is. So something is wrong. And then I watch a gothamchess video of an 1800 blundering on move 5. I've played 800's that play better than those 1800's on youtube. Someone needs to do a long video exposing the BS on here.

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And all the empty advice on here leads absolutely nowhere. Read books? Do puzzles? There are people who have done like 6000 puzzles on here and read 20 books and they are still stuck at 500 elo for 7 years. You know why? Because they ARE NOT PLAYING AGAINST ACTUAL 500's. That's why. The simplest solution is usually the truth. Guess I just got in at the wrong time, in another life my daddy or mommy may have hired a coach to teach me chess at 6 years old so I could get to 1500 elo on here. Too bad, guess I missed that train huh.

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And this elo system is so trash. How am I supposed to get anywhere with 8 points every game? I need to have TEN STRAIGHT WINS in a row and I still won't get to 1200 from this point at 1100. 
How does that make any sense at all? Especially considering the amount of sandbagging on here. It's basically designed to pushed your elo down. Unless you get lucky and get a string of people who hang or resign or have a stroke mid game, or LOSE ON TIME.

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I think the opening part of the game really makes a difference. I’m not saying you shouldn’t play the cow, if that’s what you enjoy then play it. But for me a very big help has been using a solid opening. I play Queens Gambit as white and Caro Kann as black. The thing with good openings is that they often lead to familiar middlegames, and familiar endgames, and so you win more often. You have to be prepared to lose some games when you play a sub par opening against good openings. As for Tyler1, I looked him up and I guess he’s just a natural born talent. It’s like saying anyone can play the bong cloud because Hikaru wins games with the bong cloud. We just aren’t that skilled I guess.