a wierd position

i reached this position in one of my game and i resigned i was just wondering if i missed something in the position and still could have won.

thank you, KCF

I think Bermuda means Ke7 but that's no good as its countered by Bc5.  Resigning lets you bow out with grace in this situation.

By the time you resigned, there was no way out. You were lost a good deal before that, though. I don't know why you say you have an advantage after move 18 because you clearly are still in a heap of trouble. I didn't really see the need for 18.Rxc5+, though. As you can probably now see, move 15 lost the game, and there isn't really much to say besides 'free piece.'

I'm sure with hindsight, you can see how bad of an idea it was to castle queenside in this game. It does nothing to help the safety of the King. All you need to do is look at the pawn structure and the placement of white's pieces to see that you want to stick your king away on the kingside too. Good rule of thumb: Never castle your King onto an open file!

One more critique, if you'll have it. You wasted tempi pointlessly in the opening. There is no reason to play 1...c6 if you are soon planning on ...c5. If you want to employ the strategy from the game, just play the French from the beginning and avoid giving white an extra move. Also, as you pointed out, 6...Bh5 is a complete waste of a turn.

6. ... Bh5 wastes a tempo. If you are going to play Bxf3 next move!! You may as well play 6. ... Bxf3 immediately.

The game transposes into a sort of french defence. When you play 9. ... cxd4 it's a good move. White then makes an error. He should play 10. cxd4 to support his e5 pawn. After 10. Nxd4 you can win a a pawn with 10. ... Nxe5. Unfortunately you miss this and exchange knights.

White then misses the tactic of 12. Qa5+ forcing the king to move, since 12. ... Qc6 loses staight away to 13. Bb5 pinning the queen.

After 17. Rac1 you are in trouble since the pawn on c6 is an easy target for white. Probably it started to go wrong with 12. ... Ne7. Possibly 12. ... a6 makes it harder for white to attack. 14. ... a6 is then a waste of time. Better to play 14. ... Be7 and hope to castle kingside.

17. ... c5 is a poor move. I can understand why you would like to play this move but you cannot. However, I am very impressed by white's exchange sacrifice 18. Rxc5. It creates a beautiful passed pawn that quickly demonstrates its "lust to expand". Excellent play by white.

No, the position when you resign is lost. The reason that you mistakenly think you are winning after 18 moves is that you naievely just add up the points and because white sacrifice a rook for a bishop you seem to be winning. But you are not. The passed pawn on c5, which can be backed up by a rook on c1 if necessary (it turns out not to be) is a monster. Positionally you are lost after 18 moves (if not earlier).