1. This belongs in GCD, it's too advanced for us.
2. The only thing I can say to help ya is suggesting you to just stop play for a while (not too much- just 1/2 weeks). Don't completely ignore chess, maybe watch some videos about it or do puzzles, but just don't put it as your main focus for these 1/2 weeks. After that, try playing again.
I'm tilted, again. Saturday I got my peak blitz rating of 1472. I was literally winning the next game but I was too slow and lost on time. ever since then I just mentally collapsed, I can't stop losing games, I'm also throwing winning positions, my rating is sinking faster than the Titanic. In 2 days I lost almost 100 rating points and now I'm scared to play again. why did I have to lose a stupid game on time while completely winning and why did my brain have to stop working!? do I have brain damage or something?
I know crashing out in the forums isn't really gonna help but I don't know what else to do, my brain is absolutely fried rn.