how do I really learn to play chess
beginner need help

Why is this aske dover and over and over again? Play , read and watch videos, not so hard to do.
that reading and watching videos is working out so well for you.

how do I really learn to play chess
Well, I'm not sure where you really are, but there are numerous ways to start. You could check out other beginner threads here. Or get a good introductory book like Patrick Wolff's "The Complete Idiot's Guide to Chess" (Really! I have it, and it's good.) Or start reading the loads of free material on Dan Heisman's web site. (You'll have to sift out the beginner stuff from the intermediate/advanced stuff.) Or even YouTube and other chess web sites if you know where to look.

Master these 25 courses and you'll no longer be a beginner:
http://www.chess.com/blog/webmaster/free-chess-mentor-courses
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