I overlooked forking the King and the Rook with my queen, because I was still distracted by the blunder and it was already taking a toll on me
How to overcome breakdown and frustration after losing a game that was very valuable?
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Hello, I had this recent game where I was about to win despite a huge disadvantage for me (Acrobatic position, intense multitude of pieces attacking, blundered an entire rook), it felt glorious as I was actually about to win the game that I may eventually cherish due to how it was played, especially because of 35. Ne6 (A brilliant move, I understood the idea but I still had to figure it out because I only found it because of intuition, not calculation.)
This game has a feeling for me because I was finally going to prove to myself that I can actually win games in chess even if your chances of victory are blurry.
But then I lost as I blundered one more time because I was distracted by the thought of the idea, and it felt like an entire building fell onto me and I broke down somehow, I know it may be just a game that would have no value in your perception, but for me it felt like I was painting a painting, something that would actually give me purpose to remain motivated in what I love doing.
This game, which was supposed to be an excellent game for me, eventually turned into a trauma that would convey the message that I cannot be victorious if I am always euphoric when I see a winning move, I am even scared of analyzing this game because it just reminds me of how I wasted a brilliant move and how I should've won despite the disadvantages in front of me, I do not know how to overcome this.
(This post may eventually turn cringe for me as time goes, but for now I'm going to stay in the present and just grieve over losing with a brilliant move)