I want to be great at this game, but I can't. Doesn't matter how hard I try!😒

I want to be great at rapid, but I'm so pathetic. I study and still get destroyed. I blunder check and still get manipulated. How do people get to 2,000? I just feel defeated, before I start...

Not just rapid but playing against stronger players helps

There are a lot of elements you need to learn/improve if you want to reach a rating of 2000. You have to practice a lot of tactics, create an opening repertoire, learn endgames, understand strategy, analyze your games, and play a lot of games to gain experience. You also need to know how to train effectively.

The entire process is time-consuming — you don't become an expert overnight. In my case, it took me around 5 years of everyday training to get Elo rating 2000.

At your current level, the most crucial element is tactics. I can recommend the free workbook I created — you can access it here: https://stopmakingblunders.matbobula.com/ 
Follow the exercises every day, and after a few weeks, you will start seeing progress.

I study my losses. I also study my wins to see what I did right. I usually blunder check, before I move. I didn't in my last lost though and just played like garbage like I couldn't see the board. I had these tilts where I play like I never played a game of chess. I don't know if its distraction or mental fatigue. Tunnel vision? Any way yea I also watch various you tubers as well and I do puzzle somtimes.

I get tunnel vision pretty consistently I would recommended trying to deal with it by either being able to recover fast or play better while tilted but what your doing should be decent for now

This is like saying "I want to be a great hockey/soccer/baseball/football/Golf Star and no matter how hard I try I can't make the NHL/FIFA/MLB/NFL/PGA"

It is hard to be a master at any sport/game and not everyone can be the best. Many people who are not in the NHL play hockey because they enjoy it. Many people the world over play Golf because they enjoy it. I don't think they go nuts about how they've never shot a double-eagle.

I think people think those are different only because of the salaries. But the salaries are reflective of the earnings and the earnings are due to the popularity of the sports and how much people are willing to pay and how many people watch them.

What I'm getting at is that you should play because you enjoy it, if you become a top player, that's great. If you don't you don't.

By the way, at 1100+ you're better than most of the people in the world.

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1000 is better than most people in the word but it's still relatively in the beginner /intermediate range 1000s have a lot to learn before they can become competitive in tournaments casually it's decent tho

I mean, I only started actually playing recently, but have been watching Gotham, Hikaru, and other big chess youtubers for quite some time. A good way to improve would be to watch Levy's Guess The Elo. In it, he goes over common mistakes at your level, and how you can improve.

Yea I do enjoy his channel.

I could give you a few tips and tricks if you add me.

A couple of his recent videos were actually surprisingly informative (one of the ones where he analyzes beginner games and roasts them )

You only joined 4 days ago.

I used to teach chess at chess clubs back in the 1980s. One thing I noticed again and again was that when a player learns some new chess ideas... especially new strategy rather than new tactics... both his results and his rating tend to drop sharply while they struggle to assimilate the new ideas into their current playing style. Only after the new info has been digested and incorporated into the player's style will the results go back up, to a new level higher than before.

If you feel ready to learn some new strategy (and possibly wreck your results for a few more weeks), try this:

GM Larry Evans' method of static analysis - Chess Forums - Chess.com

I just want to be better. I been blundering games and just gets to me when I play like that when I see all these 2,000 and up act like its as easy as breathing and then I'm like wow I really suc, why bother? I do play for the fun of it too. I just want to someday be a 2,000 and up.

Check my post just above yours.

That's why it's important to try new things you will most likely tilt and lose a bunch but you need to learn how to play what you have learned that takes practice since you won't be good at whatever opening or style or idea you create or whatever you learn that's new first

Also one of the reasons I grind thru tilt (not really the reason but it works )