Im a bad loser.
Sort:
andrewjeselson2
Dec 12, 2015
0
#21
[COMMENT DELETED]
Think about how damned stupid it is to expend the inordinate amounts of mental and emotional capital that you're pissing away. It's not fun to lose when you've blundered but let me save you some time - you ain't perfect and will never be. You are behaving babyish and it's great that you can own your puerile pedestrian nonsense. Get away from the game for awhile and go visit some kids at the Shriners hospital and see what a turd you have been acting like as compared to these precious kids that could bitch about unfairness but generally don't. It's a bleeding game and this ELO moonshine is likely eating your egoistic lunch, Cracker Jack! Learn from losing and it's not a loss is it? Get mad or glad but acting a damn fool is like pudding up a rope, shovelling smoke. Get over yourself as your rage is ruining an otherwise fun game. Better to be pissed off than pissed on. Millions of dollars or someone you love life isn't on the line. You don't have a problem, you've got a decision to make. Self-loathing isn't helping you is it? Pull your head out of your sphincter and put this is perspective my friend. Thank God you're alive to lose a friggin game of chess. Gagging on gnats and swallowing elephants. Stop it!
You're also ate up with rabbit trailing and forestalling opinions about religion and being too smart to imagine GOD'S existence. You're all over the place and you do need to grow up. Purge all that hate out of yourself and make up your mind. God isn't your problem nor or Creationists like me. You're going from chess rage to deism or perhaps nihilism and when you argue against God you argue against the very being that makes you able to argue at all. You're too hard on yourself and you're projecting your venom onto this nonexistent God you disdain. Don't worry about idiots like me who believe God. We're far, dumb and perhaps even happy in our beliefs. Get therapy and chill out. Peace
Dec 12, 2015
0
#25
I don't think those tests are meant to be taken seriously. They are just for fun.
You've played over 4000 long games. That's more I've ever played in my life! I've probably played more blitz games than you in my life, though since I havn't really learned the skill of playing long games I am not very good at blitz nonetheless.
From your termonology I gathered you probably have a few chess books under your belt. I see your tactics rating is low, perhaps that is the next part of the puzzle for you, just do more tactics...? I would say do a little each day and if you havn't already done so pick a tactical motif themed book or two (or maybe 3 or 4, just start with one though ;)...) and do those puzzles until you can do them in your sleep.
Dec 12, 2015
0
#27
I would also like to add, given bgjettguitar's last two posts, that I believe your problem is not as bad as you make it out to be. Yeah he is probably trying to steer you into the right direction but I don't believe that advice is really for you. We all as chess players go through a point of time where we play people that do retarded openings and we are "overconfident." I've done that in my own games and keep doing it. The thing you have to realize is this, just because they play a stupid opening, doesn't neccessarily mean that they are a weak player. They probably play that way to throw their opponents off. A mistake made a lot in bullet, as they will reach a barrier on their rating and will begin to wonder why...
All and all I think the main reason why you arn't better than you already are is because of your tactics rating, but maybe you practice tactics on chesstempo and don't like chess.com's timer ... idk, what I know is your tactics is way low, lower than mine, and that's very bad, because I don't really know much tactics at all.
Your emotional episodes are just a mild road block, easily fixed. I'm sure it's been fixed already by bgjettguitar and Steve.
to bgjettguitar
I see now that your last post was just a joke :D Well, in part ;)
Dec 12, 2015
0
#28
I find that tactics trainer is really instrumental to chess improvement. I notice a sharp increase in my calculations.
I'm very similar. It's kind of why I don't play much. I love Chess, I really like watching two people play and I do like playing but I'm a pretty poor, and during the game my emotions and impatience get the better of me and influence my next "move". This is probably why I miss things and make stupid mistakes, which adds to the frustration.
It's sp easy for people to point and highlight flaws and immaturity, but it's sad that the person can't change so easily. It's not all about practice, it's about changing the way you think, which is difficult. Some people just don't have the right mind for chess.
Dec 13, 2015
0
#34
Just keep playing. Many times I quit playing for a few months, but I always come back. It's easy to get frustrated because chess is a really difficult game. By practicing tactics you can improve your calculations under pressure, and be able to develop plans in the middle game more efficiently.
[COMMENT DELETED]
Dec 13, 2015
0
#38
Ok, OP. Here are my two cents.
You played about 4700 standard games. Make it 5000 by the end of the year and then stop! Take a break for a year. Take a break from playing. Use the time to learn new things. Read the articles by IM Silman GM Serper and others. Watch videos on YouTube. If you can afford it, purchase Premium Membership (maybe Gold will do) and do a few chess mentor courses every day. Channel your energy from anger and cultivate patience. Results will follow. Remember, the chess board & chess pieces return you neither love nor hate. It's what you have you channel into them and they merely return it back to you. :) I hope I was helpful.
Dec 13, 2015
0
#39
If you win give yourself a chocolate; if you lose give yourself two chocolates.
I like to talk to my cat after a loss; she knows as much or more than I do about chess.
This is not helpful, but it will do no harm.
andrewjeselson2 wrote:
religion wont work for me. im a deist, all beliefs and ideas integrated, but nothing committal. im close to athiest, i think religion is perfect for controlling people, perfect for starting wars, terrorism, etc. need i say more? im going to hell? good, its great that you think im such a terrible person.
You're not a terrible person and you know you're not. From asthma to atheism to Yahweh to volunteerism to world problems to friend's problems. You are a caring person living in a chaotic world but at the perfect time. Chess isn't the real problem. I suspect it is a distraction and losing games is less an issue than wondering and questioning how you've been utilizing time. Becoming addicted to pain and problems becomes one's identity.
The mind, to ensure that it remains in control, seeks continuously to cover up the present moment with past and future, and so, as the vitality and infinite creative potential of Being, which is inseparable from the Now, becomes covered up by time, your true nature becomes obscured by the mind. An increasingly heavy burden of time has been accumulating in the human mind. All individuals are suffering under this burden, but they also keep adding to it every moment whenever they ignore or deny that precious moment or reduce it to a means of getting to some future moment, which only exists in the mind, never in actuality.