Hahaha i understand!! Try to take 1 lesson a week(the beginners lessons) do not rush and do random inputs. Watch the video and listen carefully to the narrator. This helped me gain 500 elo and im sure itll help you too!
IM STUCK AT 300 ELO

Sometimes you will feel absolutely demotivated, destroyed, literally obliterated and trolled hard by your opponents that makes you want to cry. But that’s how the games works haha, it’s your choice to keep continuing and improving. Look at me, I quite literally started from scratch (300 elo) and I progressed my way up to 1200, I’ve been slacking on chess recently and my rating dropped a bit. Yet I’m still motivated to reach a new prime. Good luck on your chess adventure!

You are plying random moves without thinking. That isn't the way to play chess.
Look at this game:
Even a complete beginner shouldn't play 9. Qxg6, it's just bizarre.
Don't play on autopilot, don't play random moves. Slow down, think, and try to find good moves.

Improving Your Chess - Resources for Beginners and Beyond.....
https://www.chess.com/blog/RussBell/improving-your-chess-resources-for-beginners-and-beyond
im at the bottom of the barrel and I always make mistakes