That's exactly right - I heard somewhere that blitz is just hope chess. Also my friends don't recommend this site either, they are quitting. I won't play on here as often, deciding this before I posted this thread.
Maybe I'm just the patzer? Strong opposition just means they will capitalise quickly on blunders. This tournament was a shock for me - last year it was u1600 which I played in (I got a pretty good result), and I entered the same tournament this year carelessly overlooking the new rating cutoff.
I've been taking a break and my results are getting worse... so I need to do something, whether it makes me cry or not. Analysing my games brings up bad memories because I lost, but if that's the way to go I will probably shed 100 ml of tears to improve 100 rating points.

pong pong i want you to try something if you will ,
i see you have ungraded at 960
i think you should try it but do not rush your moves as 960 requires thought from move 1
if you win great , but the result is irrelevant ,
its the undertaking that is key